#but then they just like. stop liking me or talkign to me or sth. or like idk i will be open and talk too much or infodump or sth and they

[hauntedpearl]

not to get back here and immediately get whiny but you know.

#anyway. like. i think maybe something is wrong with me. like psychologically hadghdjdkd #every TIME i get in a group of people and i fall hard and fast for the people there bc im normal and im like FRIENDS NOW & FOREVER YIPPEEE #but then they just like. stop liking me or talkign to me or sth. or like idk i will be open and talk too much or infodump or sth and they #just start distancing themselves #and it's like OH MY GOD I DUD SOMETHING #i also wish they would just tell ne what i did so i won't do that in te future but instead they're all etiquette-y about it #and now i have to go cry in a corner about it #and then im like okay i should leave the group or whatever they can have fun w/o me so i jsut sort of pull away #and then i get tOOOOO lonely #and then im like oh no let me go crawling back #and they're nice bc maybe all this is like fully in my head or maybe absence makes rhe heart fond or whatever #and then cycle cycle #anyway. i need to get a life bur i dont have one so i keep cryinf about everything stupid #WHATEVAAAAA #im gonna go do math to calm down #ive forgotten a lot of my undergrad stuff so im doing linAl again!! and it's v fun!! i actually never had to take linal in college #like we used a few principles and atuff but i never had to take the course so doing it now is kinda exciting too!! #ANYWAY ANYWAY. EVERYTHING IS SSTUPUF

[sparklepines]

Breathe bud, it'll be okay, be on your breathe, 5 seconds in, hold 5, 5 seconds out, hold 5. Do this at least 5 times, we're here, you did nothing wrong, it's okay

I did.

I was a horrible friend. I stopped talkign to them for not reason bc I was selfish and felt like no one cared for me. But then they need ed me when I wasn’t there. Nothing has eben the same after what I did and it’s my fault. I’ve tryign make things better but I’m horrbile. They weren’t feeling okay at all and Im’ aan asshoel. Im just hopin they are in a hospital or sth. We had plans to meet up .I was goign there. We are both from Brazil and I was foign to meet htme bc I love them. I lvoe them so much and now i cant do anyhting but call and call and call and no one is picking up and im so sfucking sorry.

#anonymous