#but yea idk what my problem is besides self criticism :/ sigh

[fairymint]

i need a bit more sleep and alone time today (have to take my testosterone and preferably decompress)

but i am chewing on some lore in my head to hopefully make my muses more comfortable to work with while i make connections with them. logistically, anyways. (such as volo being in the future, twins traveling, etc. general things. )

my rp mental health is a little fragile admittedly, and i don't know what it needs... though i may try to focus on just making posts/ possibly replies until i feel better. my mental health overall is fine, just some little internal issues.

I'm still available for ooc chatter if you have something! but I'm trying to fine tune my efforts ic. when I'm feeling better i might make some self indulgent posts, but imma rest until I'm in good condition to reach out w/ individual wants again-

that's my mental from the past few days, there'll probably be mood whiplash and sin/fluff the next time i post IC- gonna let the muse be a brat later cause he deserves to unwind a bit.

#ooc. #the sun is shining in my face and i can't sleeeeep #but yea idk what my problem is besides self criticism :/ sigh #simultaneously have felt too selfish and too selfless and at this point just wondering if i need a small amount of rest #i probably need some me time regardless but it's like and then what??? #negative jic #my brain/interactions have been pretty all or nothing. shitpost or super serious #..... course this could all just be the work week + low T speaking. which are about to be solved in a few hours #and like. an unspoken effort to try sending things out but I'm hitting a mild mental block there too #anyways I'm gonna try to go back to sleep here and slack off. #see y'all in a bit after I've napped+eaten+dosed+chilled #got several days off so I'll probably stream at some point when I'm feeling up again. today's gonna be focused on muses playing/ connecting