#but…yeah. his sister remembered the one (1) conversation we had and bought me fandom merch of my favorite character

[void-tiger]

“Hey I wanted to say __ but I didn’t want to stress you out (again.)”

“Hey no stress! All good!”

“…well GOOD because I have been stressing myself about that for (months) awhile. But if it’s all good it’s all good. (I can tell my anxiety to shadduuuup about it if I know that directly.)”

[continues to resist the urge to send bird and cat memes and music covers]

(Wait until y’all actually feel comfortable talking without that Wall of social anxiety specifically around eachother, Tiger. Don’t abuse the dms. Patience. You at least know he won’t run away from you again. He showed up to your party and wore the bandana you threw at him playfully, and apparently did pay attention to what patterns you wear on your nicer clothes despite him getting more avoidant than ever when you do. Tell the dopamine to CHILL and BREATHE. Ya know. Like ya promised.)

#tiger’s musings #social crap #socializing is haaaard you guuuuyyys… #but…yeah. his sister remembered the one (1) conversation we had and bought me fandom merch of my favorite character #and he…apparently got the gift bag and tissue paper and probably assembled it ‘cause of Who’s Handwriting on the giftbag from them both?! #and?! he matched the same ‘daisylike flowers + wildflowers on white background’ that I wear to church?! #(look it’s one of two (2) floral pattern I like: ‘dried’ flowers on white or daisies (with jewel tones) #(but who tf actually NOTICES stuff like that?! how long has he noticed that?! does that mean he likes my SEE? FEMME I GUESS style #(that I wear to church?! (when otherwise I’m a ‘color tanks/graphic tees with cargos or jeans/jorts’ sorta gal #(and he has seemed to find me more approachable when I Quirk It Up with a burgundy hat and denim jacket and the same pair of converse) #but…yeah. I don’t think I’ve /ever/ had someone notice /me/ with that much attention to detail instead of…my body. #it’s…kinda nice. to feel seen. and apparently liked. but not objectified. not salivated over #and for fuck’s sake I just turned 30 and he apparently helped everyone else set up big and shiny 30 decorations everywhere #so yEAH I am YOUR age (and actually 6 months older) even if…I still look 19 to 21 apparently (whyyyyyyy?!) #and…probably act much younger than I should ‘cause…egh. social trauma I’m literally in therapy for #but…yeah. I was ready to give up before that conversation #I’m digging in now. especially after that conversation + he and his sister picked out my gift at least a week prior