#buuut <3 i never listen to my body <333

[needylittlegirl]

its the season of me forgetting that sun exposure can trigger autoimmune flare ups !!! born the be a little plant forced to be a sickly victorian child

#its HOT today so of course for my break i decided to sit outside in direct sunlight #5 minutes in i can feel it seeping into my bones in a bad way #i think its funny that all my life i’d spend sunrise to sunset swimming or playing outside #and i’d be *exhausted* and my mom just figured its cause i was so active #now we know !! #ive also gotten significantly more sensitive?? to it #like when i was little i could spend hours outside and just need to sleep alot the next day #now i notice the yuck seeping in within the first hour #its nothing horrible i just get achy and exhausted so its manageable #its usually in the middle of summer where it sucks cause im outside everyday so i never get recovery time #but i always just push through it cause i like being outside #so i push through it til i physically cant <3 and then i need like 3 days to recover #but thats only towards the end of summer #i also always get a lot of symptoms in summer that i dont usually get the rest of the year #and i think its cause it so suddenly trigger flare ups #idk #my thighs and shoulders are always the first to feel it when ive been outside too long #and then i start to get a headache #if i go inside when the headache hits i can prevent everything else #buuut <3 i never listen to my body <333 #u guys dont need to know any of this #if youre still reading ilyyy kiss kiss mwa mwa