#callmedenkipls

[edenslittlecloud]

college life, i guess (?)

man, i hate myself.

recently i got into college which made me very proud of myself but i just can’t take it anymore, it’s so hard to do everything on time and do it the right way.

i plagiarized a classmates work, and i don’t feel proud about it. i feel like college isn’t for me but i still want to do it because so many people are counting on me to finish my career and make them proud but i just can’t, it plays with my mental and emotional health a lot.

i’m studying what i wanted to, shouldn’t that be enough? why isn’t it enough? why are tears rolling down my cheeks? why do i feel like a piece of garbage for not understanding a fucking powerpoint presentation? why can’t i stand up for myself in group projects?

it’s just a lot.

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