#mentalhealthisamess

[edenslittlecloud]

i’m tired from labrinth and zendaya is a fucking masterpiece, and i will make my personality around that song

#euphoria #labrinth #zendaya #im tired #mentalhealthisamess

[edenslittlecloud]

i seriously fucking despise academic validation, it’s fucking exhausting and one can’t never be pleased no matter how tired and drained you get to achieve a perfect score it still won’t be enough so you crave more and more until eventually you crack

#school #academic life #mentalhealthisamess #school suuuucks #studyblr #academic validation #overachiever

[edenslittlecloud]

How do you end a toxic relationship with yourself? I’m so tired of my own self and want the shitty side of me to fuck off but I don’t know how to stop it from growing and making everything worse

#mentalhealthisamess #mentally drained #mental helath #help help help #help me pls #tw sui implied

[edenslittlecloud]

college life, i guess (?)

man, i hate myself.

recently i got into college which made me very proud of myself but i just can’t take it anymore, it’s so hard to do everything on time and do it the right way.

i plagiarized a classmates work, and i don’t feel proud about it. i feel like college isn’t for me but i still want to do it because so many people are counting on me to finish my career and make them proud but i just can’t, it plays with my mental and emotional health a lot.

i’m studying what i wanted to, shouldn’t that be enough? why isn’t it enough? why are tears rolling down my cheeks? why do i feel like a piece of garbage for not understanding a fucking powerpoint presentation? why can’t i stand up for myself in group projects?

it’s just a lot.

#collegesucks #quarantinesucks #mentalhealthisamess #ihatemyself #cryingtimes #midnightthoughts #guesswhojisavoidinghomework #callmedenkipls #struggles #genz

[edenslittlecloud]

quiero comer

quiero comer

quiero comer

el dolor en mi estómago quema y me pide atentamente que busque algo con que llenar ese vacío que tanto me lastima…

pero no quiero

no debo

si logró dejar que esto pase sin llenarlo de comida o agua, tal vez y solo tal vez así pueda retomar lo que alguna vez fue mío.

ese peso ideal que me fue robado por mis propias avaricias y gula

eso peso que tanto he deseado recuperar no importa cuánto me cueste

ese peso con el que todos me querrán de nuevo

#tw food #tw weight #mentalhealthisamess #tw comida #tw peso #itfuckinghurts #butifiwanttobeskinnythensobeit

[edenslittlecloud]

a veces me pregunto que hubiera sido de mi si hubiera continuado con mi anorexia y bulimia ¿acaso habría logrado llegar a mi peso deseado? ¿mi familia lo habría notado? ¿me hubiera visto mejor?

in a world were being skinny is a privilege and gives you opportunities, the idea of not eating and being extra skinny with insecurities at all sounds so beautiful

#eating problems #bulimist #anor3xic #insecure #mentalhealthisamess