#cant even distract myself with shows or movies or even music cause i’m simultaneously overstimulated and exhausted

[bpdamn]

having a depressive episode after being okay for a while is really fucking hard cause you start noticing how much you‘re changing, how all of your energy is just fucking gone and how the smallest tasks are too much for you to deal with. it’s slowly but surely tearing you apart and you’re not sure if you’ll recover from this one

#my anxiety is skyrocketing #i cant stop thinking about sh and alc #i can’t get out of bed #i can’t shower #i can’t do chores #i feel like throwing up anytime i eat but i‘m binging again #i physically cant get myself to talk to friends #i‘m trying to be kind and gentle but i feel like i‘m being a real bitch to anyone who tries to talk to me #cant even distract myself with shows or movies or even music cause i’m simultaneously overstimulated and exhausted #it’s bad #personal