#chloe shush

[hystericfae]

Someone convince me that the next 5 days at work are worth it

#chloe shush #all for 13.50 an hour too #permanent hearing damage and losing the will to live I suddenly see why vetmed has one of the highest suicide rates #and I'm just a lowly little kennel tech but damn #.....did I mention that last weekend we literally had a puppy they'd feed 5 cups of food only at night #a 5 month pittie does not need 5 cups and certainly not all at once #he'd throw it up and eat the throw up and shit thr kennel 6 times after so #when my coworker said he was doing thag i was like yeah no we're telling a tech #why are owners just fucking stupid

[myangelscrimson]

me talking to myself? sort of? I'm putting it under though cause it's hella long and I don't wanna bother anyone that follows me by accident

I keep seeing people say that not all narcissists are abusers, (true, I'm sure). I don't believe in the term narcissistic abuse either as it is stigmatizing and harmful, a lot of people with npd have also experienced a LOT OF abuse and I sympathize with that greatly.... however in my experience, I've seen that most people with npd....do in some way at least use the people around them. It's quite literally one of the criteria that's implied would happen when getting diagnosed with npd...is it not? A lot of the symptoms people with npd experience are in some way... probably going to hurt others, is what it seems to me? And because it's a pattern, which is why npd is a recognizable personality disorder at all...it's likely going to happen, again and again....?

I watched someone also explain that by letting people with narcissistic personality disorder continue to define the disorder themselves....they're technically just doing exactly what someone with npd is expected to do. Painting their own narrative as to how anyone who doesn't have npd should see narcissists. And while I think people of their own disorder should be able to tell you what their disorder is like, in my own experience....most of the time what someone with npd is saying....is unreliable, fabricated, not the truth or full truth....just completely dismissing something is even wrong...

Like I think I might have bpd, and I'd be absolutely crushed if someone said what I did/do was bpd abuse...but I can also acknowledge that yes, there are patterns associated with this disorder that can result in me being abusive to another person. So much so that it is well known by therapists who can detect the patterns and how I was even able to suspect that I possibly have bpd. Not that people don't absolutely suffer with symptoms of personality disorders as much as the people they love who watch them go through it....but it's not an excuse to say that personality disorders don't come with some symptoms that can/usually hurt others in some shape or form..?

I mean, I'm always up to learn more, and I do watch/listen to a lot of self aware narcissists because they really do seem helpful ....at least explaining the inner monologue or thought processes that go along with being a narcissist. I'm better able to understand my dad and what he might be thinking or feeling based on the experiences others share. I still struggle with feeling safe around people who tell me they have npd as I've experienced abuse at the hands of someone with it ...but I always try to hear every side of an argument because I'll never get anywhere just listening to my own.

#chloe shush #npd #undiagnosed bpd

[doublecheekedkinard]

genuinely obsessed and impressed with tommys understanding. a man who also came out at a later stage in life taking bucks hand and saying its okay bambi get your legs under you, you got this. like thank you so much i cannot stress enough how much this means

#911 #shush chloe

[bradleybonkbradshaw]

Listen I did this on my phone at work at 8am. Dont come for me about the fonts. Thank you John Boyega.

#shush chloe #hangster #tgm #rooster #hangman #jake seresin #bradley bradshaw

[existentialism-and-chocolate]

If the first verse of Spiracle by Flower Face isn't Orion to Rosalind or Silas to Phoebe or Juliette to Roma idk what is

Just

I want the parts of you you only show to the corner of your bathroom mirror/I want the parts of your hand-grenade heart that beat slowly with anger and fear

#foul lady fortune #foul heart huntsman #secret shanghai #chloe gong #romajuliette #phoebe x silas #rosalind x orion #Yes i know the rest of the song deals with a less wholesome relationship than this verse makes it out to be #But shush

[hystericfae]

I was checking an old mutual out because I was wondering where they went.....

#chloe shush #turns out grape egg BLOCKED ME.? #I wonder why #they did end up dming me some....really......interesting things #I started to wonder if I was being lied to or if they were actually telling me the truth about themselves 💀😭 #I'm just prone to being blockable now to people ig since another mutual blocked me #at least they WARNED me about wanting to interact less though 💀 #I'm inclined to say I just suck as a person but almost everyone who has ever blocked me was the insecure one #I literally didn't message a girl back and she just blocked me a day later because of it 😭💀 like damn

[hystericfae]

hysteria is such a pretty word I'm so glad it's for the ladies

#chloe shush #.....its a shame that they treated everything like women WERE just hysterical beings #but at least its a pretty word 😔

[hystericfae]

Urge to ask weird questions don't fail me now

#chloe shush

[hystericfae]

I have GOT to get off prozac

#chloe shush #literally all my emotions towards people are like. gone #AT LEAST THATS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE RIGHT AFTER I TAKE IT??

[hystericfae]

Is there a crossbreed between a bunny and a deer

#chloe shush

[hystericfae]

I WAS THINKING HOW COILD I TWLL SOMEONE IM SHITTING OUT OF LAUGHTER MORE EFFECTIVELY AND THE WORD SHIGGLING JUST. popped unto my brain

#chloe shush

[hystericfae]

#chloe shush #polls #tumblr polls #my polls #poll #tumblr poll

[hystericfae]

Told my sibling my favorite hazbin characters and then they said oh i expected your favorite to be vaggie and angel dust. Like yeah me too

#chloe shush #Angel was my favorite in the pilot #but idk I LOVE huskerdust but I'm not feeling angel AS hard as I was in the pilot #and vaggie just cause I tend to like mean queer women

[hystericfae]

Also since I've been off prozac I've dissociated FAR less. My brain isn't in a constant state of fog and running on pilot mode

#chloe shush

[hystericfae]

Does it say anything about me that every friend I've ever had and every person I've ever been close to has had glasses...even online...while I have like 20/20 vision

#chloe shush #even my sibling has glasses #I was gonna say by some weird miracle most friends have also been shorter than me #(I'm 5'2 or 5'3 rounded) #but actually I've met some that were taller than me now

[hystericfae]

I wanna change the theme of this blog so bad but first I need to decide what character and colors I want to see for the next 3-4 months

#chloe shush