#city would be ok if it were smaller and i wasnt stuck in car bound suburb hell

[soldier-poet-king]

ive read three books lately that have involved deserts/steppes/horse cultures and like yes i am STILL afraid of horses bc they Are The Unknown to me a born city rat, but, i like. get the appeal. i deeply DEEPLY get the appeal. it’s like the sea. the endless possibility of freedom. it’s a hunger

#anyway cried on the bus today thinking about riding into the sun #HOW CLICHE #i really do just. hate winter and hate the cold and hate the cityh #i feel SO TRAPPED and its really starting to weigh on me #ive never even SEEN a prairie ok #im lowland farmland rolling hills if u can escape the urban sprawl great lakes area #ive seen appalacia #and parts of europe #GOD I MISS NOT BEING FIVE HUNDRED HOURS FROM NATURE #FUCK IT WE HATE THE CITY #but im also not moving to fuck all western canada bc winter is worse there and i already want to die #PERHAPS. THE PROBLEM. IS CANADA IS TOO NORTH FOR ME. MAYHAPS #city would be ok if it were smaller and i wasnt stuck in car bound suburb hell #BUT I CANT AFFORD TO LIVE IN A DOWNTOWN AREA