#cuz who knows what the gp is gonna say now.....fucksake

[transdib]

the nhs be like

me in march: hi i have moved here from australia, i have been on testosterone since 2018 on a 3-monthly injection and i have a letter from my aussie gp to verify this and that i have been linked in with a psych and endo since then too and i just need a prescription continuation of my treatment. my next shot is due in june and i cant be late

gp: ok :) i have to make a referral to the nearest gender clinic and theyll be in touch and i'll send them the letter from the aussie gp

me: ok thanks

gender clinic a week later: hi we got your referral + letter but we need some more info

me: okay heres some more info

gender clinic: no thats not enough info we need your entire history including your Diagnosis TM from the psych as a letter + recent bloods arent enough. but once we get those we can streamline you through as a review patient so youre not on the waitlist

me after a fuss between me and the aussie gp due to email troubles: ok heres all the documents they have on my file im about a month overdue i need my shot asap

gender gp: thanks we will be in touch asap

*silence for over a month*

me: hey when am i going to be seen to? im nearly 2 months overdue for my t shot

gender clinic: weve had a high amount of referrals and youre on the waitlist so youre just gonna have to wait

me: :}

*another month of silence*

gender clinic: hi so thank you for sending those documents over, since you have already been on hrt since 2018 you dont actually need our services so we're discharging you and we're gonna write a letter to your gp explaining this and that she can prescribe the dose as recommended on our website

me:.....okay well....what do i have to do now?

gender clinic: im gonna write up a letter to send to your gp and they will be in contact with you to arrange an appointment and you can get your hrt easily like that

me: *on the brink of having a mental fucking breakdown cuz of being 3 months overdue for my hrt and all of the hormonal and physical changes that have left me feeling unbearably distressed and anxious and su1cidal and all the other fucking stressors that have come from this* okay......thanks :}

#negative - #life of doge #this summary doesnt even begin to scratch the surface of just how distressing this has been for me #i just cant wrap my head around how you essentially have no control over the letters given #or control over the correspondence btwn the gp and the gender clinic #every time ive asked what i can do #ive just been told to wait for a call #then when i inquire theyre like oh we never got that letter :) #even aus was never this fucking difficult #i really do feel for the clinics and how understaffed they are #and how they get fuck all funding and theyre the ones paying the price #for the stupid gov making stupid decisions and setting the system up this way #but my fucking god. my fucking god. #every person i talk to has their own arbitrary idea of the process #and nothing makes sense and i just want my goddamn hrt #i just want to feel okay again #ive been crying almost daily from so much stress #and i dont even know when im gonna get my t #and it feels like i wont get it until i am actually getting it #cuz who knows what the gp is gonna say now.....fucksake