#did someone say trc famous adjective lonesome

[kazbiter]

kavinsky's death is actually the closing arc in a great tragedy to me bc his actions throughout the story are mostly just him practically begging for someone to be on his side, to care about him, to even just look at him. his father tried to kill him, his mother is completely uninterested. he can dream himself as many people as he wants, but they will only ever think of him because he made them to do so. the dream pack are just physical manifestations of his desire to not be alone in the world, to have someone, anyone, connected to him. he so desperately tries to draw some sort of emotion out of ronan, good bad or ugly, because the intense similarities they share mean that he's the only person who might be willing to look long enough to see him. and when it doesn't work, when he realizes it can't, that this world is not for him and he is not going to be a part of it in a way that involves anyone else, he decides that everyone is going to look at least this once. they will all see the finale if nothing else. genuinely doomed from the start. and how truly devastating that is in comparison to the core group the story focuses on, characters that even at their lowest and darkest and meanest and absolute worst have others there with them. characters that always have someone looking for them. dying is a boring side of a life that has nothing inside of it.

#4th of July got me this year girls (gender neutral) #also I'm contractually obligated to mention that he was so so funny #a few of his strengths: #1. hilarious #2. leader of ronsey nation #3. thrower of parties that involve fun for the whole family (minus the dream battle and suicide that one time) #but actually tho why do I feel like they mentioned like. families going to those parties. #anyways I'm getting SOOOOOO off track #did someone say trc famous adjective lonesome #and when u think abt the fact one of his worst acts was taking Matthew.... someone he KNEW ronan cared about above all #ohhhhh OWWWWW #like yeah obviously that was terrible and evil of him I'm not saying he's innocent or even nessecarily good #I'm just saying that he's fucking tragic #like so desperate for someone to look that he doesn't even care what he has to do to make it happen #this took me like 1.5 hrs to write btw I had so many things I wanted to say but it's almost midnight and I want to post it on His Day #the raven cycle #joseph kavinsky #the dream theives #kavinsky #trc kavinsky