#don't mind me ck3 posting

[mariamegale]

And I was the same person who wished you well. And let me say, your personal post made me cry. I'm so happy to hear how happy you are. You deserve all the best life has to offer and it seems like you've found it. That deeply inspires me to seek out my own happiness (though I am well, thank you for the well wishes!! <3<3) I hope you'll continue to give us updates and let us know how you are. It was self-care to read about how you are. Also CK3 is the best and congratulations on your empire.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 I adore you a lot, anon.

I hope you are having a nice summer, and it makes me happy to hear that you're well! Honestly, the best tip I have for feeling better is to just actively start making choices to be more positive. It sounds like bullshit, but to quote the unbeatable Courtney Act, "When I stopped judging other people, I was like 'wow! I don't hate myself anymore!'"

Anyway, here are

some posts that i feel pretty much sum up my feelings on self-care and becoming more at peace within your own skin. Obviously it's not gonna be relevant to everyone, because we're all different, but my personal experience has been that once I decided, for real, to want to make a change to who I was, it happened, and I became happier as a result.

I started working with my therapist, not to get their affection and confirmation that I was good enough, but to find what my problems were and how to actively find ways to change them.

I started calling myself out when I did shitty things. I stopped airing my shit in public, I stopped seeking out or interacting with drama in every part of my life, I let go of grudges and I curated a space for myself (both online and in real life) where the only things I interact with are things that make me feel at peace with the world.

It's not childish to surround yourself with things that make you happy, and anyone who accuses you of... Idk, not wanting to face the world or something, because you are making the active and continuous choice to not be involved with things that make your annoyed or upset, is a person who probably doesn't understand the value that peace of mind gives you.

Becoming happier or kinder or a better person aren't things that happen one after the other. You are never going to wake up one day and find that everything is fixed. And that sucks! It sucks and it's fucking unfair and it's okay to be angry at it! But there's a difference between anger and bitterness.

Like how long-term stress turns into anxiety, long-term anger turns into bitterness when it's no longer productive and the cause for anger isn't realistic anymore.

However, just because this is the case for me, it doesn't mean it's the case for you. As one guy in that one Scientology documentary said, "the thing that appealed to me was, 'if you feel this applies to you, embrace it. If it doesn't, discard it."

Anyway, this shit got long and would probably work better as a post of quotes lmao, but here's an extended rant on my experience with trying to beat my depression and extremely destructive habits! <3

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