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FINALLY joined a trade union. Please clap.

#I put it off for aaaaaaages because it was so unclear which union covered my sector #And then I finally found out this week #And its a VERY ANNOYING UNION like a very mainstream big bureaucratic union #But anyway I joined it. Better than no union! #Also it took less than 10 minutes to sign up. It is simple and easy to join a trade union #And I have my radical and cool tenants union for when I get frustrated about this one! #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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I've taken like...4 classes on peatland restoration now, which isn't enough that they'll let me restore any peatland but IS enough that i can see when a peatland is damaged and needs restoration. Maximum distress minimum autonomy. Caught in the valley of despair. The learner's hellcrotch.

#people do be posting aesthetic pictures of erosion features that are emitting tonnes of carbon a year... #destroying one of the most fragile and rare habitats we have on this island... #not to mention the acidification of downstream waterways .... causing further ecological harm... #i feel like im sort of at this point with a lot of my knowledge #i am only a year into my first Big Job in this industry #let me attem!!!! except don't i don't know what im doing...or do i??? #me fein #farming #eefa sells her labour

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Today at work we learned we have to take all our holiday days by the end of May instead of the end of June and an INSANE little pantomime broke out where all my coworkers had to make a show of how little they wanted to take holiday days and how much they wanted to work. How they don't want to let the company down during a busy time and they're so bored when they aren't at work anyway. There weren't even any managers there it's insane.

#I keep thinking of the purpose of the little performance #What's the deal #Who are you convincing. Why. #Is your life really that meaningless? #Skill issue #Hobbiless behaviour #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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So .... communities. Right. Once upon a time a guy was so personally offended by the concept of divorce that he hand-wrote my mother a letter to tell her not to divorce my father. Insane. 22 years after this, I had to teach this guy in a class. We had to co-occupy a space both in full awareness that he was the busy-body freak who tried to tell my mother not to get a divorce she absolutely needed to get (And did get! three cheers for divorce!🥳🥳🥳). And. We did co-occupy. The course went great. It was fine.

Life is long and life is weird and I still don't like that guy very much but living in a community means accepting that the guy who gets involved in other people's divorces still has something to offer the world. Or something.

#i guess im saying we are all very quick on the internet to declare someone irredeemable for . petty shit. #do not misunderstand me and think anti-divorce guy is secretly kind and charming and uhhh trustworthy with authority #but he is still ....here. and even if i m revolted by him he's not actually causing harm so #if ur for prison abolition and the like it is in your best interest to find a way to co-exist with people who do shit you DO NOT LIKE #two paths diversed in a yellow wood. take the one that isn't labelled BLOOD FEUDS AHEAD #me fein #eefa sells her labour #also @cottage core ppl this is how rural living goes. add that to ur pastoral fantasy.

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The other day my coworker was like "you know, I don't have a problem with catholics even a little bit. Even my parents are ok with catholics. It's amazing how far we've come in the last few generations" and I was like. "well. Thanks man. I appreciate it."

#me fein #then i asked how his grandparents felt and he let out a VERY LONG SIGH and i was like YEAH I BET #eefa sells her labour #irish shit

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Evil landlord coworker is so evil and so a coworker I really can't cope

#Me Fein #She's periodically like. Pleasant to interact with. And makes an effort with Jamie's pronouns. #Which gives me huge whiplash when she then talks about how everyone on benefits is subhuman #Or about how her accountant is helping her commit fraud #Or how she gets any works done on her house deducted from the taxes she pays as a landlord #By claiming they're done on her landlord property instead #etc etc etc etc #I'm a gentle soul. I don't like meanness and cruelty :( #I don't like someone being decent to me but not decent to other ppl????? #I care too much!! I can't take it!!!! #I don't know how to respond to this situation in a both moral and. Professional way. #🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪🔪 #Eefa sells her labour

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#Eefa sells her labour #Look I am PRO CRIMES AND PRO SCAMS #but the guy who has scammed himself into the social media manager job at my work is a fucking nightmare #If he would sit in a corner and quietly scam the company out of a salary for a position we DO NOT NEED #I would respect him #However he keeps making it harder for me to to my job #And physically taking things i'm working on away from me to butcher #Like I don't want to brag but i'm a trained and experienced facilitator. I was a university lecturer #Do you really think itms your job to add more animations into my slide shows??? Social media man??? #He is also clearly like. Using Google to search for images because he keeps adding incorrectly id'd species #I will find a nice creative commons pic of a plant i'm talking about and he will be like #:) I have my sources *changes it to something that lives in new zealand* :) #Like dude u don't need to be an expert but you have to understand that there are things you don't know. That I DO. #I have been trying to avoid him as much as possible but occasionally I'll be like. OK I am going to give him a chance #Maybe he's not that bad #And i'll let him look at an Instagram post or something #And then he RUINS EVERYTHING AGAIN #Me Fein

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Do you have any idea what its like to be a sustainable agriculture girlie with a hatred of permaculture. Do you have any idea how much I suffer every day.

#Its not that I hate it its that it doesn't work.... #Not in my biome. Not for the plants that grow here. Not unless you are trying to maximise the productivity of like. A small garden #I want to like it! Its a really nice idea... #And. You know. it's a broad concept. It covers a multitude. Some of the things it covers work! #But those things are also captured under the term......gardening. #So permaculture in my experience is either some shit that does not work! Or a fancy word for gardening #It also claims to be low-human-intervention and somehow more energy efficient as a food production method? #And its just not. Sorry. Planting things in rows is actually very efficient that's why people do it #So yeah uhhhh to recind my first tag. I hate it. I hate permaculture its an unscientific buzzword #For inefficient gardening #And 1 in 5 times i tell ppl what I do for a living they go OH COOL LIKE PERMACULTURE I LOVE PERMACULTURE #I suffer #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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HOW many times must i rediscover the fact that my disaiblity is disabling

#I have a task to complete which will earn me 700€ and take an afternoon #but it is boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #me fein #eefa sells her labour #never freelance lads.

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You have to separate your ego from your work. You have to you have to. PLEASE.

I was invited to facilitate a Project with a group of teenagers in a Very Small Town. They pick a challenge in their community, I help them design a solution for that challenge. They picked: what if we had a youth space to hang out in after school?

I said: like a youth café?

They said: no we have a youth café and it sucks. No one goes to it because it sucks.

I said: hmm. ok, what if you guys work on designing an ideal youth café, according to the teens of the town? and I will ask the people who run the actual youth café to hear your suggestions.

So these teenagers survey their whole school, they find out what teenagers want in a youth café. What facilties would make them want to go. When they would go. How much they would pay to attend. They made a bunch of little charts :-)

And I contact the committee of volunteers who have been doing the admirable and thankless job of maintaining a youth facilitiy in a tiny, declining rural town.

I said: Hey. You know how you can’t get young people to use your expensive and difficult to maintian facilities? Well, these kids are willing to tell you exactly what to do to attract them. Will you hear them out?

and this local volunteer says, disgusted and offended: Oh. OH. they have SUGGESTIONS, do they??? WELL. Suggestions. And they never even USE the facilities. Are you trying to say that WE have been doing something WRONG?!?!

Girl....... apologies to ur ego. but the answer to ur question is literally yes.

#grow upppppppp you are trying to provide a service if people don't want to use ur service u are doing something wrong #she was literally like. no it is the children who are wrong. #me fein #lord save and protect me from self important community martyrs. #eefa sells her labour #the best part of the community work is the communities #the worst part of community work is also the communities

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still DISGUSTED to find that the key to me becoming a #NormalGirl is apparently 2-5 hours of fucking HIKING every day.

#I don't have insomnia! I am not depressed! #I am not experiencing any existential angst #I am periodically stressed but never for more than a few hours #I am on top of most of my tasks! #but at WHAT COST??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? #AND IS IT REALLY WORTH IT??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? #Oh to be alive is to change #god is change etc #but i am not a mountains girlie this isn't me #I'm very put off to find that this not-me me is not only physically but mentally healthier! #me fein #eefa sells her labour

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Turns out maybe they can employ me in a way that matters

#Soooooooooooooooo tired #Many days!! Many days in the office. And something on every evening for the last 3 evenings #Nd christmas is in like a month #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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You ever having a conversation where you can FEEL the other person politely refraining from saying "I don't care about Africa"

#Woe! Critiques of neocolonialism in EU policies be upon thee! #Often I complain about EU agri policies at work and coworkers will be like yeah! YEAH ! You're right! This sucks! #And then i'm like AND OF COURSE THE IMPACT ON FOOD SECURITY IN THE GLOBAL SOUTH-!! #And they're like 😐 #I know I know I know - perhaps they're just not comfortable commenting on something they know less about! #Idk tho. I suspect maybe they don't care about African farmers. #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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I have learned like....20 new plants a this week. Couldn't tell u which ones tho.

#Also: first sunburn of the season #Memory is weird I can now look at a plant and be like ah! It's my friend plantname! #But I can't recall......which plants I can do that for #Liverwort looks like red maggots btw #There are 25 species of sphagnum Moss but to me there are two types: pink and green #Then there's branching mosses. Some good some bad. Depends. #Woodrush is not a rush it's a grass and it's hairy #There's. Other rushes. Sedges. Etc. #Plants #There are plants also #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour

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Boss arranged a 6:30pm phone call on a Friday evening. Is now 9 minutes late. Sir I have vampire shows to watch.

#I have pasta dinner to make! I have dating app girls to message! Desmond please! #Me Fein #eefa sells her labour

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anyone got any. Yoga video recommendations...? But ideally not stretches for ppl who are sitting in an office all day. Ideally ...stretches for previously sedentary indoor ppl who are now professional hikers.

#I'll take what you've got tho #I just feel this is a different kind of back pain #I might be wrong tho #Me Fein #Eefa sells her labour