#emotions.. escape isnt rlly escape as often as u think bc those isssues are ingrained in u.. u need to seriously face urself in order to

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ohhh 吐きそうだ by amazarashi we are IN IT this morning

#what is the meaning of life? huh?? #i also was think abt (redacted) and ik the spoilers since before i watched it and its 5am ive barely slept and im just THINKING!! #like god... what AM i living for #like life os good and plesant but what does it mean to live life if ive always felt fundamentally isolated from others and like my only #purpose is to be helpful yet doing things for too long sickens me and i have few passions .. and genuinely few ppl i rlly connect to #so like.... whats the point of it all... i mean.. everything is the ppint and may i live long enough to feel completrly different... but for #now...what do i do... even if i travel and go away... it makes no difference #i wrote a series of essays required for graduation in hs abt the feeling of waunderlust and how leaving a place doesnt absolve u of those #emotions.. escape isnt rlly escape as often as u think bc those isssues are ingrained in u.. u need to seriously face urself in order to #change #but also like gjcjcnfjdjaj its all so much #and even by chance suddenly your life can change and u can meet someone that makes it all worth it and much to ponder #im FINE bte its just 5am... it does this to me... and my body is in so much painfor no reason.. help #well theres a reason but still.. rude and homophobic #🐌.txt