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#ening because i'm slowly killing myself trying to not lwt it. i fuckin hate confrontation. don't wanna deal with it.
g0reoz
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#idk man like i've been in pretty rough shape lately but it's hard bc. as bad as it is
#i don't want to die. i am not suicidal. like. we've been past that already the problem is that i DO fucking want to be alive yk
#and to do that i have to burn all this fuckin energy being someone my parents don't hate and like
#i wanna get out. i know it'll happen eventually. but it cannot fuckin come soon enough
#i'm so tired of this!!i'm tired of sitting there crying in the bathroom i'm tired of lying in general like i am So Bad At Keeping Up A Fron
#t and yet
#here we are. here we are
#and then i feel stupid for complaiing because not much is Actively Happening to me right now which like!!!! thats the point. it is not happ
#ening because i'm slowly killing myself trying to not lwt it. i fuckin hate confrontation. don't wanna deal with it.
#but. fuck. i really want to just tell em sometimes!!! i want to fucking explode and i know that my likelihood of being alive and well would
#drastically decrease and my future would be fuckin OVER so i just have to make it a little longer.
#i know i can do it. but will i. will i fuckin do it
#how am i gonna not burn myself out yk!? like it does take massive amounts of energy
#i don't even know. i want someone to tell me they love me and mean it. that shouldn't be too much to ask.
#especially because this empty bullshit hurts just as much as someone saying they hate me. because they do!!!
#that's the thing. they love me because i am not all the things they hate and threaten violence over.
#which tbh. isn't me at all.
#feels bad man idk
#.woof.
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