#eternasci

[pnthra]

"why hello there, chicken nugget--radiant as always."

starter call. / @eternasci

#astraeus ic * #eternasci #( m'lady phoenix goddess queen of my heart )

[sansloii]

Dissect your own writing style. What do you do most often? What do you want to take away from other writers (tag them if you want)? What is something you want to break out of?

when i started eons ago (2011/2012-ish), I had major issues with splicing-- where i felt the need to reply to every single thing in a response. even though it seemed like my muse was thoroughly engaged with whoever they were interacting with, it made my writing quite awkward since i would jump from one topic to another--from one focus to the next--and it didn't really flow well either. it wasn't pleasant to read and if i went back to re-read it, i found it very tedious. i would scan it, which is even worse because if i'm not properly re-reading it, why would anyone else, you know? i also struggled with many of the things most people did, which included dumping a thesaurus ( not to the point of purple prose ) into my writing and praying it would make it better.

anywho, i mention splicing first because it was the driving factor in me reshaping how i wrote and everything else either came after or changed with it.

style and structure

my current writing style is divided into three parts: Reaction, Thoughts, and Response. how these three are arranged are completely dependent on how the prior post in the thread left off but more oft than not, they are in that general order; my outlines ( when i do write them ) are in a similar order too. It has its upsides ( it makes it easier for me to direct a thread or a response to something because there's a structure ) and downsides ( if I'm not willing to compromise on structure here and there, it makes it difficult to frame my writing properly ). overall, though, it's helped me--as frustrated as i get with getting things down

reactions and thoughts tend to either take 2/3rds of a reply and a response takes up about 1/3rd. the reason why reactions and thoughts are bundled together is because, to me, they're more or less blended together by default and trying to section them out like "here's a reaction. then a thought" interrupts the flow of my writing. instead, they're layered together so it allows me to maybe going back and forth when a muse is reacting and/or thinking about what's happening in a moment. the response is, more oft than not, interacting with the other character if it wasn't included in the previous section and active dialouge. i've been guilty of having my muse say things, do things, and think things that don't push anything forward so at the end of a reply, i make sure to evaluate whether or not my muse has done anything of substance if needed.

things i've noticed i do a lot are:

repetition for emphasis ( e.g: he tried over and over and over again )

including phrases/descriptions/entire sentences that a partner used not necessarily in that thread/ask, but in another in order to make a connection between the muses a bit more apparent

splitting dialouge with an icon or with a singular line of thought

splitting dialouge with action that's not "he said, she tells, they laugh", etc. if i can

if there is a theme that is going to prevail throughout the entire response/ask, it's usually established in the first or second paragraph

i'm sure there are other things that i do but these are the few i've noticed because they're more of an active choice i make.

dialouge

something i also do that's not necessarily visible in my writing is that i repeat my dialouge to myself with the general mannerism of whichever muse is talking. so take for example, mikah and kurama ( @un1awful ). these shits do nothing but make jabs at each other if they're not actively engaged in something serious. as a result, they're very dialouge heavily. mikah's words have to be concise and sharp ontop of conveying bits and pieces of their ego because of who they're dealing with ( like here ). mikah's not threating kurama--so it can't be too aggressive or too insulting... but it also needs to convey that they want him to shut the fuck up without them outright saying "shut the fuck up", you know?

on the flip side, we have Andris, who also has ego and is also sharp.... but the way he is sharp is different. he has that "customer service" type of voice--very even and is intentional about what he says and how he says it. any bite he has tends to be a bit subtle. for example, here when he addresses seth ( @starpoacher ), he's teasing back but he's also still a little annoyed about seth barging in, hovering over his shoulder, etc., hence the use of "sir chef" instead of Seth's name. it comes and goes quickly because... it's seth and he will ultimately get over it, but that's how he tends to convey things.

it's a little awkward repeating dialouge to myself but it also helps me identify better ways to say something or to figure out if something is not quite right about a phrase my muse says. my muses also have different cadences when they speak so repeating them in that cadence does help when it comes to placing it in a reply and knowing where i can break it up, if needed.

what i want to take away from other writers + what i want to break out of

i require the ability to proofread better.

i don't think i'm the only one that thinks faster than i type and so, i forget words/sentences/etc. and don't catch it until i circle back for a second read... after i've posted it. it doesn't happen a lot but when it does i cringe so fucking hard.

i also have a bad habit of writing too much and not being willing to cut things out even if i don't like it, which stems from the mentality that "longer is better" and it's not. longer without substance is not better. longer with tedious language is not better. longer to the point of... not quite knowing what the point of the reply was is not better.

i've curbed a little bit of that through reading the threads and asks answered by others ( @un1awful, @rexpyre, @nezumivc103221, @bloodxhound, @royaletiquette to name a few ) and it's less to take from them and more to just... see how they write, i guess? and not necessarily things that i'm involved in but thing threads or asks i catch that are interesting to me. it helps to take a step back and not think so much about how i write things for a little bit and just... read something else--something that i have nothing to do with. in a way, it helps me be a little more objective with my own writing.

as much as i like my style and the way i write, seeing it over and over again makes me crave variety. i want to see how other people describe things or get from A to B. to that point, varying sentence structure is another thing at the back of my mind that.... i have a love-hate relationship with. on one hand, i can write something and be perfectly fine with it. on the other, i look at it and wonder why i have multiple long sentences like "[action/thought] and [action/thought]" right next to each other. it's that or a bunch of short sentences bundled together. sometimes, it's even a long and short sentence but they don't flow well like that... so they both need to change. i get though it somehow but not without some difficultly

Unprompted | @eternasci

#eternasci #🗪 ┊ ⧼ you all are some chatty cathys! ⧽ ⇹ ( asks. ) #ツ ┊ ⧼ catwalk talk ⧽ ⇹ ( ooc. ) #.i believed i answered everything #.and anything i didn't? yes i did #.thank you for the ask :) because woo-wee it's been a hot minute since i've analyzed my own writing #.and it took me a hot minute to reread things and pick them out

[ebresos]

cont. || @eternasci

there was a blush that surfaced upon her cheeks. a giggle left her as she looked at them. "i wouldn't call myself an expert, just admiring someone who is clearly very attractive." she smiled at them before the blush deepened on her cheeks. "my name is Lilibet, but you can just call me Lily."

#eternasci #ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ ‘ voices of ebresos / lilibet feldiash ’

[bloodxhound]

What is your writing process? Do you go in one fell swoop? Do you leave and come back? Do you use a thesaurus? Do you re-read and swap out words? Do you try to match/beat your partner's length? Do you care about length at all? Do you look for fancier words? Do you get straight to the point? As artists, we only ever see your finished product. How do you craft your work?

My writing process tends to be messy. I finish smaller and banter-like replies in one go, but longer, plot-driven replies more often than not aren’t immediately completed. Usually, when I’m struggling with one reply in particular, I will write down whatever comes to my mind in a very messy and uncoordinated fashion ( dialogue first without actions, incomplete sentences, German words / phrases as placeholders for their English equivalents I couldn’t think of / remember at the time, etc. ), then come back to it later to re-write the mess into a cohesive whole. Blank page anxiety definitely used to be a thing for me. Sometimes it still is. This kind of process has helped me to overcome it for the most part though, since I don’t need to fret about meeting my self-standards anymore from the get-go. I just write junk and fix it later. RP is a hobby of course, but I do want my replies to read nicely. 

As for reply length, I do try to match comparatively ( i.e. I won’t throw a whole novella at someone who’s written me one paragraph and vice versa ), but I don’t “fluff up” replies for the sake of length, nor do I cut them shorter. I write however much I’m inspired to, and if that’s a little more or a little less than my partner’s response, that’s okay for me. It’s the content that matters anyway. When I cared more about matching length, it definitely fed into my blank page anxiety. It’s kind of daunting to sit down and attempt to respond to a long plot reply if you’ve set out to match even though you don’t feel like you have as much to say, you know? So, I’m not doing that anymore.

I don’t ever look for fancier words; fancier doesn’t automatically mean better. In many cases, a fancier word will lead to a worse result overall ( side-eyeing people who write “orbs” in lieu of eyes, for example ). Instead, I care about using words which evoke the right feeling, which aid with characterization, or which sustain one of my character’s motifs. There's a lot of power behind simple, short words, too. I will use a thesaurus if I cannot come up with a word that quite carries the meaning / connotation I want it to. This is especially the case in the rare moments when I have to translate a word from German into English. You cannot trust online dictionaries; a lot of times they offer you translations that only work on a surface level, so it's always best to look up a few alternatives as well.

#eternasci #【♞】 answered. #【♞】 ooc. #thamk you for the ask ♡ ^_^

[fatedprincess]

eternasci asked: What does your character's story have to teach readers? What does your character have to teach us?

SUCH A GREAT QUESTION.

haru's story teaches us many lessons but i think that intertwining the word betrayal into her story is very important. betrayal can be categorized as this really terrible thing to do to another person .. but in haru's case , it's her setting herself free from her father's binds.

she is betraying him as she has been betrayed the same. i think we all know what it is like to have a relationship maybe with a family member who you really do not agree with .. but you stick it out hoping that things will change. after all , they are family , right ? it's easy to say that you can just break off a toxic relationship but it isn't that easy for everyone. even through all of the terrible stuff haru's father does to her AND shows that he overlooks for his own selfish gains , she still cares. she wants him to get better.

haru also takes very little time to grieve after her father's death. she is so resilient and even goes out of her way to make sure other people are okay even though she is the newest victim to the story. how she manages to do that , i really have no idea. i think that's power in itself. haru is soft spoken though throughout the story. she is not good at sticking up for herself until it is finally time for her true potential to be realized in her father's castle. she is essentially this caged bird that is so beautiful and is kept to be looked at for other people's pleasure. this bird does not get a say in what it gets to do , it is always watching for a way out.

when it comes to haru getting back out into the dating world , i like to headcanon that it takes time for her to open up to a person that way. joker , for example , though she is one of the few characters who truly shows her adoration for joker early on .. you gotta work up to that bit of trust with her. after all , her whole life has been surrounded by people who are fake. haru teaches us about trauma in a family and how she cannot come out entirely unscathed , but she can learn how to live again. living through hell in a household haunts her.

anyway , i rambled. there is a lot more i can say about my daughter but yeah. i think betrayal is such a fantastic word used in her storyline. it's not evil .. it is liberating.

#eternasci #❀ * || 𝚒𝚖 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛. ( answered ) #[ BABY I SEE U SENDING THIS TO PEOPLE #AND I NEED YOU TO KNOW #U ARE MY ANGELLLLLLLL #having this sent to me makes me all HEHE YAY

[vcmpyrr]

people are prone to reducing others down to the first few traits someone shows them. what would be the predominant three thoughts you would have of your own character? what do you think others' perceptions are?

My 3 thoughts of Sindri are:

That he's a lot kinder than he seems. He's a very caring man, it just really depends on who he's talking to and what mood he's in. He's a lot nicer to vampires in general but extremely towards his coven.

That he's extremely lonely. He might not seem like it, or recognize it himself, but looking at him in whole its super easy to tell. He's lost everything he cared about, he lost his life, he lost his free will and freedom for a time, he lost his family and everyone he loved, and carries the burden and weight of it every single night of his life. He allows people into his coven, they're his family and he loves them dearly, but he doesn't allow himself to love outside of that.

And that he's extremely strong. Man's an ancient vampire who used to be an extremely skilled viking, renowned for his strength and combat prowess, being turned only enhanced his natural strength tenfold. He's busted. So much that he does measure every movement, gesture, touch, step, as to not put too much force into it as he doesn't want to hurt anyone typically despite the whole cold nature towards everyone else.

I feel like everyone views him as just that, cold. He's cold, he's a killer, he does delight in killing and in bloodshed always has, but he's more than that. He might only show that kind side to people who come to him wishing to be turned with good reason and to his coven for the most part, but he is capable of showing it to others as well. He's not always aggressive and cold, he will talk to non-vampires like they're actual people not prey and he does that frequently. He's just more than that bad side of him and I enjoy the kind side of him just as much as I do the cold violent side, and I hope more people take note of it and see him that way not just "violent old vampire".

#🩸 / sindri's caring side is my favorite part about him one I dont get to explore much as it is mostly coven members who see it #🩸 / but still 💁‍♂️ #eternasci

[passionoathed]

❝The 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐘 of knighthood is always beautiful, isn't it?❞

@eternasci o.

#eternasci #🩸 / only the imagery tho dhsfjsgdf

[inkantation]

@eternasci asked

What is your writing process? Do you go in one fell swoop? Do you leave and come back? Do you use a thesaurus? Do you re-read and swap out words? Do you try to match/beat your partner's length? Do you care about length at all? Do you look for fancier words? Do you get straight to the point? As artists, we only ever see your finished product. How do you craft your work?

pfft, what writing process—

That's a lie, though! I have a different writing process for RP replies than I do fanfiction, and an even DIFFERENT process for my original writing, but there's a lot of commonality between the three.

For things like RP ( which are often 1-2 paragraphs aside from the few novella things I get to write - which I adore btw, ) I tend to knock it out in one go, sort of treating the writing like a flood. Once I've written that first knockout, I'll take a break from that draft, and either go work on another, or spend time doing something else entirely. Only after I haven't seen the draft for 30 minutes at least, I'll go back through it with a fine tooth comb. It's here that I'll change words, check for flow, and make sure there are no obvious grammatical errors. This is a good way to make sure my drafting skills are up to par, and to prevent my brain from getting too anxious to write anything at all. If it's bad, well, I can fix it in the re-tool.

As for length, I try to make sure it's at least comparable in length, if not matching. I never want someone to feel like their writing and effort wasn't appreciated. That said, I do pride ( and dread ) my ability to be naturally verbose.

For fanfiction ( and novella RP, which I want to do more of ) I have... a weird process. Because I tend to write either one-shot fics or 3-4 chapter pieces at most, I have a plot structure in mind ( most of the time. ) So, I actually go through and write out short descriptors of what I want each scene to be, what purpose it serves, and how it should flow into the next. This is actually a tool I used to use to prevent writing block while I was drafting essays.

Once I have that general blocking done, I'll go in and flood writing the way I do for a RP. In fic, I may go through the flood and refine a few times, especially for difficult scenes ( fight scenes in particular -.-; )

In solo-writing settings, length matters less, but I do like fic chapters to be similar lengths to each other.

Other tools in my bucket are:

A thesaurus, yes - particularly now that I speak Spanish more, I find certain English words hard to remember. Fucking hammock! WHY is that word so hard to remember!

Playlists of instrumental music. I have a very bad habit of letting the songs I'm listening to influence the words I'm picking. While not the worst thing, I don't want to steal bits of wordplay by accident. I want my references to songs to be on purpose, haha.

Tea. No comment, everyone should drink more tea. Helps the brain think, and is part of my writing process.

#【００Ｘ：OOC.】 #eternasci #( and if u wonder why my writing takes so long. this is why. i LOOOVE refining and editing ) #【００Ｘ：ANSWERED.】

[kamipyre]

resident inbox goblin is back. what's your character/oc's name? did you create it? if you did, what thought did you put into it? if you didn't, what did the author intend for it to mean? either way, do you have any particular meanings you've appended to the name?

ppl everyone @eternasci is back <3 <3 <3

SYNNIE WELCOME BACK <3 <3 <3 

her name is suki nakamura! i think i have spoken about this before, but suki’s name can have two meanings: (1) beloved and in verb form ‘to like’ and (2) a derivation from the word ‘tsuki’ or moon. 

suki’s name is ironically also derived from both of her parents’ names: daisuke and mizuki. for me, it really emphasizes the fact that at least in her first character arc, she considers herself her parents’ daughter first, rather than being her own person– everything she does, even down to her own name is a reminder of her parents in this sense. this then makes her arc, i think, all the more obvious in that she needs to let go of her parents so that she can become her own person.

#eternasci #( trivia. ) #( headcanons. ) #( meta. ) #( answered. ) #( hahahaha i cry at this one :'D ) #( but also if i hadn't picked suki ) #( i would have been chizuru which means a thousand cranes <3 ) #( it's a pretty name too....maybe that can be her ancestor's name :DDD ) #( BUT ALSO THANK YOU FOR THIS SYNNIE.....and welcome back <3 )

[lightdash]

What would you say the antithesis of your character is? How jarring would it be for you to write them? Do you think your character could ever develop into their antithesis? Would that be good, or bad, in your opinion?

       Sonic is the figurative embodiment of freedom; the idea of the self, removed from all societal expectation. Pure independence, with no restraint; the ability to forge your own path. As his theme song goes, "this fight is not for anybody, this is purely for myself". He values a life where choices are his to make, and encourages that same autonomy for everyone, no matter the reason.

     Which means the true antithesis of Sonic is oppression — absolute power corrupts absolutely. Authoritarian principles as an exercise of control. Unfair and cruel treatment in the name of 'order'. The Eggman Empire is notorious for this behavior, and so Sonic raises a protective fist against it whenever necessary.

     And he always will, until the day he inevitably kicks the bucket. I can't see him willingly forgoing his morals and taking choice away from others, especially at such a large scale. It goes against everything he believes in, and Chip put it best: "You're too strong to lose yourself!" Sonic has that heart of gold. No matter how many times you knock him down, he'll find a way to stand again.

     But... hypothetically, what would it look like for Sonic to swap teams? Pretty bad.

     This might be a world where he becomes an egg boss. A bad fight. Some poor decisions. Lost friends. Eggman is convincing and something goes awry. Sonic makes for a powerful enemy, this we know — but he's an even more powerful ally. He could enforce some very strict ruling. I think people could even come to fear him. Perhaps it wasn't a matter of his choice, but forced compliance; there are ways to make someone your puppet.

     In terms of writing, it wouldn't be jarring! I love a good alternate universe and I explore them frequently with friends, or in my verses. Sonic is a fun character to do this with, since you can put him in situations he'd never be in canonly. A li'l bit of drama is always welcome. 😏

#* ∙ ✰ / inbox. #* ∙ ✰ / character study. #eternasci #ty for the cool questions as always synnie <3

[wariodemambo]

i have truly entered my 'i don't give a shit' era of rp. i hope ya'll are ready to meet wario's friend with benefits.

#KICKING. SCREAMING. CRYING. WEEPING. MOURNING. #WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE WHO CARES #【 💰 — you can call me… annoyed. ┊ ooc. 】 #eternasci

[pnthra]

CONGRATULATIONS u unlocked the SECRET PLOTTING CALL OPTION where now lucy has to be chained to aster FOR LIFE!!

#💫 out of character. » || #eternasci #U DID IT SYNNIE!!!!!

[kataskopeia]

whats ur chars discord handle, discord number, and icon

its not an abandoned account at all he just doesn't wanna be bothered. he's in a few servers but never chats. the only person he occasionally responds to is lucy. status eternally on do not disturb, invisible, or just offline. 👍

#rip to the number system #i made a psd template just for this ASKMMDKMA #eternasci

[bloodxhound]

resident inbox goblin is back. what's your character/oc's name? did you create it? if you did, what thought did you put into it? if you didn't, what did the author intend for it to mean? either way, do you have any particular meanings you've appended to the name?

Ray Barlowe! Well, technically Raymond Barlowe ( that’s what it says on his ID / detective badge ), but he always chooses to introduce himself as the former — for reasons I’ll be putting in the tags.

I will admit I didn’t put much thought into his forename whatsoever. I chose Ray for no other reason than me really, really liking it. I didn’t even research its meaning before deciding on it, which is something I always do for new characters nowadays. I think a character’s name can contribute quite a lot to how a character is perceived  ( as far as first impressions go, associations, connotations, etc. ), and lend more insight into an author’s idea of the character.

Luckily, despite being born on a whim, it worked out fine in his case. Ray means "protector"; Raymond "wise protector" / "counsel". It ties in nicely with him being a protective character at the core, a shepherd of justice. Even the “wise” and “counsel” parts earn their justification in one of his later verses in which he returns to the LAPD to oversee rookie detectives and give his counsel on cases involving organized crime. Another thing that worked out in my favor is the fact his name coincides with the word ray, as in “beam of light”, which has made some characters nickname him  “Sunshine” and I live for the audacity and dissonance of giving this grumpy bastard man such a cute, positive nickname.

As for his last name, I put way more thought into it. Barlowe is a blend of two things: 1) a homage to Philip M.arlowe, the protagonist of various hardboiled crime novels and short stories, which is a genre in which the detective character typically not only combats ( organized ) crime but also a just-as corrupted legal system; and 2) a barlow, a type of pocket knife, the kind his father used in the murder Ray stumbled upon as a child.

#eternasci #【♞】 answered. #【♞】 chr. study. #welcome back my lil goblin. i smooch your forehead #i wish i could be normal and give short answers. alas... #anyway. the reason ray doesn't like to be called / call himself raymond is bc he was named after his paternal grandfather #and the man killed his wife; ray's grandmother ( he never got to meet her though ) #so yea can you imagine he does not enjoy having been named after a killer ^o^ #it was his father's doing btw. his mother only allowed it bc it was the first time her husband showed interest in their son #ray does like the shortened version of his name though #it's short and casual. and his mother primarily called him that too. so there's that

[fatedprincess]

eternasci asked: 🔑🎾☎️ !! MY EXPERIENCE IN THE ROLEPLAYING COMMUNITY * send me a symbol and i'll tell you...

🔑 my favorite type of threads

since this has been asked a couple times , i will just say that i am a fluff enjoyer. i feel like everyone talks about angst , smut , or any other type of writing .. but fluff .. ? fluff is amazing. i have always felt very safe with sweet wholesome threads and i (regularly) write sweet and wholesome muses .. so , it kinda just is my thing i think. i don't feel like fluff threads get appreciated as much as the other options. don't get me wrong , i am the BIGGEST ship wh*re on the planet , but i'm talking about those really genuine moments between two muses that just tug at your heart strongs yk. it doesn't even have to be romantic. fluff can be totally platonic and still be the most wholesome stuff you've ever seen.

🎾 what type of genre of roleplay i prefer to write

i'm a sucker for romance. like i said previously and what i'll probably reiterate in these answered posts , i'm a lover of ships. the sweet ships though. the ones where characters have never had a boyfriend or girlfriend before. that's totally haru. she is just learning about what it means to like someone since she is so young yk. so idk, i guess going back to my favorite type of threads , i really like the super wholesome shit rkfgjfkf

☎️ my first character i ever roleplayed

HAHA ohhh .. this is actually not something i expected FOR SOME REASON. i'm very glad you asked though. so i started on youtube as aeri.th g.ainsborough from f.inal f.antasy. she is also my longest running muse. i don't touch the community anymore though with a ten foot pole because TRAUMA. we all have it yk. but. yeah , it was fun while it lasted !! she is my all time favorite character and that still stands. even if the trauma is there , you don't want it to ruin your fav character. a.erith also helped me through a lot of very difficult points in my life. she was possibly the first character that helped me feel seen since i was kinda different like her. this is all kinds of rambly idk if i'm making since and i hope i'm not sounding too negative with it but. yeah !! i have great memories to look back on if anything.

#eternasci #❀ * || 𝚒𝚖 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛. ( answered ) #[ thank u love !!

[s4crificial-a]

@eternasci​  ;  What intrigues you more? Intrapersonal or Interpersonal character focus? E.g., your character's inner conflict, or conflict derived from external sources, such as another character?

UNPROMPTED !

okay, i love this. so. intrapersonal, meaning occurring within the self, or one’s mind—that is my style. i put a lot of emphasis on what’s going on inside my muse’s mind because my muses are mentally ill and it’s fascinating to know how they navigate the world. they have so much internal conflict, that any external conflict usually sends them over the edge. and i do this for many reasons. 

it’s about context, as in, what you’re writing and who you’re writing for. if i was writing a novel, i’d have more external conflict because all the muses are mine and i know what they’re gonna say and how they react. when you’re roleplaying, i don’t care how much you plot, you have no idea how your partner’s muse is going to react to certain things. so instead of focusing on something you can’t control, it’s easier and more engaging for me to go inward. 

take beck for example. if i didn’t go deep into his mind, he would just be crazy and weird. but because i’m focusing on what’s going on inside, now people know that he has a mental illness and it literally affects everything he does because he’s undiagnosed and unmedicated. now you know why he’s smashing furniture. it’s because destroying things and creating chaos makes him feel in control. 

same with tsurya. tsurya is the main reason why i go so deep because people need to understand that he’s just not some sad dude who can’t get over his trauma. this man is broken, so the way he views the world is very important when it comes to interacting with other people and conflicts. he cannot handle conflict. that’s why it makes sense, in his mind, to go to extremes because he lacks emotional regulation. his brain does not have the capacity to think of future consequences because of his complex PTSD. he is always stuck in the past. 

now, back to the main point. i don’t know if people are aware of this, but when you create a character to be played on this hellsite, they are not going to survive without a strong internal conflict. why? because they rely too much on outside interactions/conflicts to sustain their character and you need something to fuel these interactions beyond bumping into one another.

a great example of this? beck. at face value, he’s a nice boy. okay, cute. that’s a cute character. but what if i open up and reveal that he’s fake? what if i made him have anger issues resulting from his abusive relationship with his dad? what if i make him manipulative because he learned that from his mom? what if he has some unresolved trauma from being this so-called nice boy? what if he’s sick and tired of being nice in this messed up world? 

suddenly, we have a person. 

everyone IRL carries these intrapersonal conflicts, that’s what makes characters relatable. going back to beck, who is my most popular muse. his intrapersonal conflicts influence how he reacts to interpersonal conflicts. and that’s what makes beck, well, him. (same goes for all my muses!)

in short, it’s never about one or the other. it’s about how one influences the other. they’re supposed to be in tandem. that’s where the characterization comes from aka how your muse interacts with the world. both intrigue me, but intrapersonal is my favorite. 

#eternasci #{ ooc } — it be yara. #/ i feel like you asked me a simple question and i just ranted #/ did y'all know that i'm qualified to teach college level writing #/ >.> everyday ya learn something new about yarabara #/ but if you read my writing and catch mistakes ssssh no you didn't- #/ lmaoo