#even more intense than the feeling of being unfuckable and my anxiety flare-ups whenever I feel particularly aware of my body

[futureghost97]

personal rambling in tags

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#I don’t even know how to explain my mental state lately #I’ve never felt hotter I’ve never felt worse about my body I’ve never been more private I’ve never had more people in my life up my ass #even more intense than the feeling of being unfuckable and my anxiety flare-ups whenever I feel particularly aware of my body #is the fear that people are getting bored of me #that I’m just not enough to hold their interest anymore‚ or that they’re tired of hearing about how I’m doing‚ especially when it’s bad #sorry for treating this like a diary #but I just don’t know. it feels like everyone is getting bored of me because I’m an exhausting person #and I hate being 25 I hate being the age that my brother was when he bought his first house with his now-wife #I hate feeling like everyone is watching me all the time but no one is interested #I wish I could just… disappear for a year without any repercussions and do the things I need to do and then come back