#even though the quest was supposed to be a transitory period .. yknow .. maybe im just home now

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the perspective of looking at new jersey apartments again makes me glad im living where im at now, honestly ... ^^ ''

#i SO wish i could hop over there though ... the price of living is SOOO high and the pay doesnt match even a little #its bad everywhere .. but new jersey's got a special kind of sickness like that because of its nyc proximity #everyone lives there and commutes to the city like 1.5hrs away for the better pay . but i just lived there lol #i feel like compared to here everything in jersey's tinged an ''old'' way .. #i dont know how to describe it but EVERYTHING from the stores to the apartments has a ''grandma's house'' feel #a ''hasn't been updated in 40+ years'' feel #and austin's so new and booming. apparently. but i agree it doesnt have that old tinge to it #the apartment im living in isnt new. but it isnt old either. it doesnt have the feel to it #i thought it was just nostalgia speaking but looking at nj apartments today was like. oh wow. its nice to know im not going crazy #this same apartment in nj would be SO SO SO much more expensive. people here complain about prices (they SHOULD. its bad) #but looking at where i was and why i HAD to move elsewhere .. i remember now yknow. this place is a luxury i could never have had in nj #which doesnt mean its good. its sad. i wish things were different. i DO .. sort of .. wish i never moved out here to begin with #but im glad im here. i feel like ... you know when a hero goes on a quest and makes friends along the way and then .. doesnt return home .. #even though the quest was supposed to be a transitory period .. yknow .. maybe im just home now #atleast awhile longer. im happy calling here home awhile longer #i do kinda miss that old tinge to it. i always said everything in nj was like .. ''tinged yellow '' .. and it really is. yknow. #i just need to put some antiques and lighting into my apartment. lol. feels just like home