#feel like i missed chances and now im behind 😞

[ccarrot]

Feel like i had this mental barrier around me preventing me from like. Having fun. Being how i want. Visually anyways 🤔

#You know how they say that most people spent their teenage years experimenting with self expression or whatever. I never did #had. have. this fear of being seen #id get scared to even try on clothes that i wanted to wear. or do different hairstyles. or makeupp hfhhfb #feel like i missed chances and now im behind 😞 #ehh. i have issues with dysmorphia n stuff too so i look bad in my eyes regardless of anything..

[imjustwritingg]

MORGAN IM SHATTERED. THEY MISS EACHOTHER. THEY NEED TO FIND THEIR WAY BACK RN. These last couple of chapters have been amazing!! The angst is painful but everything.

"She loves you and she was there for you. She let you into her life and gave you a chance when we all warned her not to. And I know you let her in too, you told her things, and then you just…you tossed her to the side like she was garbage, like she was nothing to you."

This line broke me- Hailey gave him a chance and nobody agreed. Now look at her broken and blaming herself😵‍💫😭💗☹️😖🥴🥺

"How the hell do you sleep at night?"

"I don't sleep," Jay mumbles as the door closes behind her.

The way I felt his pain through reading this. Everyone’s blaming him which is right to do but until he opens up he’s never gonna be forgiven 💔💔😵‍💫😣😐😞🙁😔

I miss my happy and sexy couple not this angst, sad, broken and one.

THANK YOU FOR ANOTHER MASTERPIECE🤍🤍

They DO miss each other and it is so painful, but the angst has been the most fun to write. I love it so much and I’m really happy to hear you’re enjoying it even though it hurts. 🙏🏼

I hate having Hailey blame herself, but I feel like it’s a natural response to what happened. You just start second-guessing yourself and everything that has happened. I should probably be a little concerned with just how much I enjoyed writing that. 😅

Oh Jay. He’s definitely going through it, but he really needs to open up to someone. Someone definitely needs to knock some sense into that man.

I promise the happy and sexy PB&B will return and I can’t wait for you to see how they get there!! Thank you so much for reading and for the yelling pal!! 💕

#anon ask #upstead fic #nbtlyg things