#feel like kanan would have some very tortured conflicts about his body as a consequence

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thinking about the Jedi and how they seem to place very high value on taking care of one’s body and treating it like a sacred object because it’s a literal conduit for the Force, and how Kanan spent like ten years obsessively drinking and intentionally not taking care of himself as a way to close himself off from it. not just as a fuck you to the Force itself but also as a form of self-flaggellation because Depa died for him and all he’s done with his life is get in bar fights and work shit jobs and sleep on stranger’s floors

#sw.txt #i am sort of obsessed with the idea of him having a bunch of shitty tattoos for that reason #like modifying his body in meaningless ways specifically to break the idea that his body is something sacred and special #feel like kanan would have some very tortured conflicts about his body as a consequence #hrm perhaps i am projecting. ok i am but #the image of him intentionally looking ‘shady’ and smoking and drinking and doing ‘trashy’ things #and ultimately subverting that imposed social image by being a kind and selfless person #its very good #like taking up ‘low class’ symbols as a form of coping with just like. existing as a jedi #i know irl those things are tied up heavily with racism and classism ofc but just like #think about it u know #okay i am rambling but #really loving the idea of kanan being a but nihilistic when it comes to his body AS a symbol #and decorating it accordingly to assign meaning to that meaninglessness #and i know there are jedi with tattoos and stuff but like #most of the human jedi we see are overwhelmingly white #and the visual language SW uses to communicate their nobility and social stature #is bound up in very white ideas about inhibition and moderation and cleanliness #so him intentionally not following those strictures and looking very un-jedi like #both as a way to fit into the new social fabric he finds himself in and to distance himself from the order #is so fucking good #anyway god im talking so much. how is everyone doing #this is burning a hole in my brain today #sw meta