#fixate on fictional characters to get through my childhood haha that's fun I'm so normal :)

[running-in-the-dark]

I could've been insane in an interesting way at least but noo, I just think about a stupid guy so much that I lose my mind, how fucking stupid is that

#I didn't mean that. he's not stupid. some of the ones before him though.. yeah #but like why. whyyyy #'how have you been?' 'oh not great I'm mentally ill in a way that makes me get so obsessed with men that everything else stops existing so #I'm actually not even a person right now I'm just a thing that's in love with John Larroquette :) ' #also I absolutely know why that started and that makes it so much worse!! haha my parents ignored me and were mean to me so I had to #fixate on fictional characters to get through my childhood haha that's fun I'm so normal :) #at least now I'm not hiding under my blanket crying and praying that [random guy I was obsessed with as a child] will come save me so #that's something I guess #(no actually it's just as bad. and I'm a whole fucking adult. why.) #also I'm now remembering random shit like that time I followed around a man in his 30s at a wedding when I was 10 because he was pretty and #my mother didn't want to deal with me. so. time to keep staring at this man I guess! his name was Peter lol why do I remember that #or the less funny things #seriously wish I was exaggerating when I say I get obsessed. oh it's not an exaggeration. I mean that literally. #personal