#fr ive spent hours this weekend thinking about it tf is wrong w me

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hoooo boy

#lmao god damn my head has been in a weird sorta space the past few days #kagerou days has been stuck in my head & wont leave #but not in a 'man that freaked me out' sorta way #more 'god i wish that were me' #which. if you know the song im talking abt. uh. yeah #(if anyone sees this & looks it up; tw for blood & death) #(i mrean. i doubt anyone will but better safe than sorry ig) #fr ive spent hours this weekend thinking about it tf is wrong w me #i havent even been that sad lately #ok wait the fact that ive relapsed w. uh. p much everything. probably implies otherwise. #fr though i havent really been feeling that bad #although that may just be bc i have smth to take my mind off it #this happens sometimes though so i dont think the constant not-quite-but-probably-should-be intrusive thoughts are related to that #sometimes brain just goes 'hey yk whats cool? blood and death and gore and blood and murder and' and it wont shut up for a few days #(dw id never act on it though) #its ok tho ig. i realise how much of a mess i am but if im not sad then ig theres no need to uh. yk. go through the effort of fixing things #hm. now that i see everything written out like this; #jesus fuckign christ i really should go to therapy #lmao oh well not doing that again #delete.txt