#fuck u tiir

[blood-driven]

im loving this thread bc, Tiir - uncensored would have already tried gutting Haise long ago. But bc we need things to go semi smoothly he has to be toned down to grumpy tension. 

#i never know if i should post my vent drabbles or not for tiir #like on one hand it adds content and shit #i wanna writttttte me #fuck u tiir #tbt

[nooneknows11]

It’s not about him anymore, it’s about those who were after him.

One of them is this guy who i kinda have feelings for but kinda not, well sexual attraction definitely,but I’m acting as a shallow and easy person around him, bcz i think if he knew the real me, he would either be obsessed with me or hate me. And him knowing the real me, would hurt me. Now i am just annoying him,but lets be real he kinda enjoys it. The thing is from tomorrow it ends with its reasons.

I am breaking but differently. I always thought, that i could smth. Someone would like me or love me, well for at least like me or sexually like me and now its like i cant see myself in that way. Like me with someone else seems impossible, seems unreal. I am a fucking hopeless romantic, but welp broken one.

I cant wrap my head around boys anymore. Its not about the hurt anymore, its abt me. ME. I am the wrong one all the time without even quite knowing me. I am just not enough, not even close. And i am jealous of ppl who have that. Its bad i know but they have smth special, someone special. I wanted that.

Now all i want is to stop. Stop feeling. Stop feeling feelings for boys or anyone. I am tired, i am so tiired, u have no idea. And this is only one piece of my life.

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I Cry Wiith My Words" Some May Thiink I Just Wriite But That Is Not The Case!! My GodMother Held Me In Her Arms Cryiing Too, Realiizing I'm In The Worst Shape!! She Told Me I Should Go C a Professiional, The Type That Just Siits nd Liistens Wiith Only Tablets as Solutiions I Don't Beliieve That Is The Perfect Escape!!!

I am Loved 4 My Acts" Not 4 Who I am!! I've Realiized That It's Not The World That Is Fucked Up, It's The People That Just Make U Thiink They Ever Gave a Damn!!

I Need 2B Saved!!

Runniing 2Wards Alcohol nd Weed Is Not Helpiing AnyMore!!

I've Always Been a Shut In But Now I am Truly Consiidering Closiing The Door!!

I am Tiired Of Fiighting MySelf Alone Cause It's a Fiight I Wiill Never Wiin!! 4 Theiir Stupiidity I Hate EveryOne, I Hope That Won't B Consiidered a Siin!!!

My Tiime Is Almost Up!!! I Wriite Thiis 2 Giive Tiime!!! Help Me Wiipe My Infiniite Sorrow, If I Got 1 For Every Scar I Gave MySelf I Would Have More Than 1 Diime" The Next Attempt Wiill B The Last! Won't It B Funny Knowiing That SomeOne That Never Showed Any Problem Was Part Of Ur Past???

[deterministpalindrome]

==> Pal: Handle your clade’s hang ups exceptionally well.

trolljacksparrow hey so like can *evveryone* do that

deterministpalindrome can everyone do what?

trolljacksparrow the thing

with like making muscles do the thing you wwant wwith psi?

deterministpalindrome no they can't. /ii/ can't. ii don't know anyone who can. that'2 what ii meant by theoretiically ii know /how/ 2omeone could but iidk a 2iingle troll who ha2 the fiine enough and deliicate enough touch two be able two do iit. bodiie2 are compliicated nd okay? iit'2 not a 2iimple ta2k and there'2 way ea2iier way2 two make people do whatever wiith your phy2iical hand2. '2 not gonna happen.

trolljacksparrow oh that makes sense

deterministpalindrome do you have a tag you want me two u2e 2o you can block iit?

trolljacksparrow wwhat? no im fine?

deterministpalindrome nadaya.

trolljacksparrow pal?

deterministpalindrome ii know how twiitchy you get about p2ii and then you 2how up after ii mentiion a techniique two a2k que2tiion2 about iit doe2n't take a geniiu2 two put two and two twogether

trolljacksparrow ://(

deterministpalindrome al2o you're the lea2t 2ubtle creature iin exii2tance and that iinclude2 vii

trolljacksparrow WWOWW excuse me i am NOT less subtle than doombat swwarm rainboww hair vvelius "humans are my spirit animal" furoze! wwe are at /least / equally subtle

deterministpalindrome /maybe/

trolljacksparrow rude???? fight me????

deterministpalindrome dude ii've been waiitiing two fiight you but you're under fu22 arre2t!!

trolljacksparrow ill fight them too! simultaneously!

deterministpalindrome oh man have 2omeone viideo tape you half a2leep fiightiing both of them at once ii wanna 2ee how hard they're laughiing at you flaiiliing

trolljacksparrow im not half asleep anymore! and wwhat if that's my strategy to get them distracted?? ://U

deterministpalindrome are you 2ure?? you're iin a heat piile you could pa22 out aaaany 2econd

trolljacksparrow you bastard, using my surroundings against me

deterministpalindrome mwah ha ha ha

trolljacksparrow this isn't ovver, ill get you for this pal, you and your little dog too

deterministpalindrome liittle dog: bark bark! iif ii 2tart taggiing thiing2 wiith 'nd don't look' are you gonna block iit and lii2ten? or at lea2t prepare your2elf for p2ii de2criiptiion2 before jumpiing iin wiith both boot2?

trolljacksparrow .... okay://( im not...it doesn't usually bother me and its not evverything but it just the bone of my arm came out once, wwith that, and this wwas familiar so like eugh sorry.

deterministpalindrome fuck dude ii'm 2orry =[ ii can def tag that 2orta 2hiit though not that iit'2 gonna come up a lot ii don't thiink but =[

trolljacksparrow wwhy are you sorry, you didn't do it.... its okay pal im okay

deterministpalindrome you don't have two be okay nd you're allowed two be fucked up by 2hiit

trolljacksparrow but in the end, i wwon i wwon, me, i shouldn't be affected it makes no sense

deterministpalindrome thiink of iit liike a fiight. ju2t becau2e you won doe2n't mean you diidn't come out uniinjured and that 2ome of tho2e iinjuriie2 aren't gonna turn iintwo 2car2 that'll 2tiill ache down the road 2car2 aren't a bad thiing they mean you're aliive but pretendiing wound2 don't exii2t ii2 bad yeah?

trolljacksparrow ...oh that's....oh, okay, that's..reasonable?

deterministpalindrome exactly. beiing hurt doe2n't mean you're weak or you lo2t iit ju2t mean2 you gotta be careful not two make iit wor2e. pan2 can get iinjured two and iit'2 the 2ame kiind of thiing

trolljacksparrow but its so stupid there's no evvidence or like...it feels like its all in my head .....wwhich ot LITERALLY IS, but

deterministpalindrome nadaya he took the iin2iide2 of your arm2 and put them on the out2iide2 that'2 fuckiing traumatiic af

trolljacksparrow you knoww, like, its difficult to not be like "smh This Shit Again Gst Over It Jesus" im okay yeah good point only one though

deterministpalindrome arm* ...ii've got thiing2 blacklii2ted two iit'2 not 2hiit you ju2t get over or ii'd be over iit by now iit'2 been age2

trolljacksparrow you do? ...wwait of course you do i literally tag shit as #pal dont look wwhy am i like this

deterministpalindrome heh. ii've got more than ju2t that. ii've 2et up photo 2canniing algoriithm2 2o ii can block tho2e two

trolljacksparrow that's brilliant, you're fantastic

deterministpalindrome dunno iif ii'd call that briilliiant 2o much a2 ii'm tiired of lo2iing hour2 two paniic attack2

trolljacksparrow ://( that sucks so much, im so sorry dude so its like injuries but for your head? that kind of explains a lot

deterministpalindrome yeah well. ii deal. ba2iically yeah trauma make2 wound2 and make2 other wound2 wor2e

trolljacksparrow ugh, im gonna fight it so im just, gonna be dealing wwith this for like alwways? u g h

deterministpalindrome nah of cour2e not wound2 heal riight? there'2 alway2 gonna be 2car2 but you can get them down two the miildly iirriitatiing once iin a blue moon part eventually

trolljacksparrow !!! /optimism here i come /

deterministpalindrome and you've already done 2tuff two 2tep forward. you a22ociiate wiith how many captor2? and fought along2iide how many tiime2? plu2 you let me 2can you that one tiime

trolljacksparrow i havve! !!! you're really good pal you're so good

deterministpalindrome okay 2o thii2 ii2 the iimportant part nadaya and ii am not kiiddiing about how iimportant thii2 ii2 quiirk droppiing level2 of iimportant

trolljacksparrow yeah?

deterministpalindrome Healing this sort of shit is /slow going/. /Do not try to rush it, you will make it worse/.

trolljacksparrow i mean, okay i wwill listen, i promise, but goddamn im 55 and the arm thing happened at 6 that's so many swweeps??? but griping aside, i understand and wwont

deterministpalindrome okay good =] and yeah ii get iit and iit'2 fru2tratiing but iif you try two fiix trauma wiith trauma you ju2t get trauma 2quared. liittle 2tep2 are way more effectiive gettiing you u2ed two a biit at a tiime untiil you 2top twiitchiing from that before moviing on mean2 the progre22 wiill 2tiick better

trolljacksparrow right, that makes sense, right did i evver tell you you're so great

deterministpalindrome pff

trolljacksparrow don't pff me accepts your greatness you're pal the great to match vvel's the terrible ://)

deterministpalindrome fuck how am ii 2uppo2ed two refute that

trolljacksparrow HA

#posted ooc #trolljacksparrow #tw: gore

[blood-driven]

u will have drab soon. need edit. 

#i feel sick looking at tiir. #once that shit is edited im #focusing on ryner #fuck u tiir #u make me ill #ooc

[liink43]

I've Been Gettiing Worse"

The Scars, The Thoughts, The Courage😢It's All Been Doubled In The Last Few Weeks'

I Fear That I Won't B Able 2 Fufiill My Objectiive B4 I Go..

It's Funny How In My Miind I May Beliieve But, I Don't Rely n Don't Want 2 Rely" I C That We r Just PlayThiing In The Eyes Of Those Or Just He Who Put Us Here'

U Know The OutCome Of The World, The Thoughts Of All U Created, The Begiining nd The End But Even Thou U Know U Choose 2 Ignore" EveryOne May Say That The Riight Tiime Comes If We Just Beliieve, That U Wiill Proviide, That U Know What U r Doiing and That EveryThiing Has a Purpose😂😂I Laugh At That'

4 Those Who Do Not Look 4 Alter Motiives" and Follow Ur Shiit!! They Beliieve That They Suffer In The Beginiing So They Can Prosper In The END... I Ask What Of Those That Thiink The Same and Go Through The Same But In Theiir END They Have Nothiing????

I'm Tiired, I Diid'nt Want 2B Here But Now I am Forced By My Stupiid Objectiives 2 Stay, I Have Fucked Up Thoughts and They Hurt and Dstroy Me So I Prefer Physiical Than Mental Paiin" U r Suppose 2 Help In Our Tiimes Of Need and Sorrow' Well?? Here I am!!! A Beliiever That Is Not Goiing Through Tiimes Of Need But An Intensiive Sorrow!!

I Need an Scape!!! I Cannot Turn 2 My Friiends Or Famiily!!! I Cannot Turn 2 U!!! I Cannot Even Turn 2 a Stranger!!! All I Have Is MySelf..