#genuinely it was fucking gut wrenching like i wanna cry byt i cant

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ok the date just ended updates in tags

#crushposting #genuinely it was fucking gut wrenching like i wanna cry byt i cant #she explained everything. like why she is the way she is ahd how she was b4 it sll happened etc etc #and while trauma is like. ig a valid reason. she still just cant give me Anything #like she basically wants a long term situationship where she gets to go on dates w other ppl #and also she struggles to show affection bc of events but she wants to receive all the affection but also shes not super comfortable w it #so she doesnt know in what form. she doesnt know how long it will take her to be ready for a relationship #and she doesnt know what she can give me during that. wait. ig #she just held me for a while and she was like i have to be honest etc etc like ok but also fuck this sm its so PAINFUL #she said we can keep trying and if it doesnt work out its fine but like :// #ughhh #....got a bunch of studying done tho #helped her w her law applications briefly