#goddamn i'm sorry if i'm grumpy or dramatic T_T

[noxtivagus]

this week's gna be so hellish

#🌙.rambles #my. cramps will eb so much worse bcs i will have si much stress #how am i gna work on all these assignments w all this painnnn #i'm actually so shit w dealing w this sort of physical pain #i'm so dramatic oh god #i want a kiss. give me a hug #sobbing i hate how when i'm physically unwell #goddamn i'm sorry if i'm grumpy or dramatic T_T #but oh no i get clingy as well oh nooooo #i shld sleep soon bcs i'll really need that for tomorrow but #AAAHAHAHHFHFJSJDGMDM #maybe i shld go odl tmrrw. i'll probably die w the cramps n the sleep-deprivation #i swear in class i can't tell if i have neurodivergent tendencies or if it's just my sleep-deprivation n the constant stress #tbf no even when i was a kid #not too obvious i think but idk at all bcs apollo n i are good at masking stuff #so am i normal or not??????? #can i just cry #the physical pain n the stress is already enough n #there's smth so. no. i will never open up about it but #i feel like crying this is fucking bullshit #why are all these songs jn this playlist #yk what maybe i'll just cry. maybe that'll take away some of the physical mental n emotional pain #it's so hot i feel like i'm in fucking hell #i want to write abt smth but i shld deny that desire for now #theres sm to write #my private notes aren't even nearly filled with all the secrets of my mind #i can't stop writing until. until i have it all somewhere #so i can remember #i hate and love the fallacy of the mind so much #i'm sorry