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toriannotweakin · 2 years

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its unfortunately and beautifully true when u gotta admit all i ever really really REALLY had since 2005 been God,Jesus,and my passion(s)..but so grateful cuz some of us dont even know when we have “that”

our connection to our spirituality/spirit world - a passion

our family/friends - a passion

LOVE - a passion

fun - a passion

tiiiime spent - a passion

something we cant live without and drives us to our greater purpose- a passion

*wait i forgot food* - food forsure a passion (among mad other shit we all casually enjoy, ESPECIALLY together, i was thinkin too fast my fault)

i could go on and on but the miracle is more of us have these in us than we realize but it would be amazingly spectacular to finally share dis feelin wit somebody fr for once but fuckin Jesus yo,,i’ll love what i love and try my best to fulfill da shit completely living inside me regardless, as we all should.

i wish i was being corny when i said what im finna say but istg i truly cant help it,, certain shit fr just live in me witout my control and i love creating more than words. i coulda gave up 9 years ago and just went and got certificates for a good job and i still have those options now but my passion; my calling, is honestly all that matters. lil square pieces of paper that been the reason behind ppl i know being murdered in da same cycle since i was 14 honestly dont impress me. i wanna love my life but even MORE than i already do rn. i know for a fact ppl think cuz i go through so much bs dat im probly “miserable” but istg lmaooo dat shit is nowhere near da case, bad days is bad days and really hard too and do make u wanna quit but get real lmfaooooo like, its not my fault ppl associate things/possessions/everything going right wit happiness and gratefulness. they’ll neva say dat but if u just assume somebody wit lesser than u going through a tough but necessary time is miserable dat says everything about them more than they words ever could. im grateful. not exactly contempt of course. i have fleeting happiness thank Jesus. and i do believe shit will get better. and it starts wit faith. it start wit kind hearted spirits who i do or “dont” know(i lowkey hate that term, i honestly in all foreal prefer havent met yet, idc). it starts wit the love i have for people. and appreciation. and admiration. adoration. so many people. ina weird way or not idc. it starts wit everytime i pick up a fuckin pen and BELIEVE cuz its really all i know since i was 15. frfr

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