#having a revival of a very specific academic fascination bc my brain decided that rereading if we were villains is a good idea

[polaraffect]

planning classes has me going "hehehe *kicking my feet*" but i know as soon as i actually have to attend those classes my brain is going to be like "😐😐😐"

#damien.txt #having a revival of a very specific academic fascination bc my brain decided that rereading if we were villains is a good idea #which is like. one of the main driving forces behind my interest in history & english #and now im like................. hehe shakespeare #to be fair. the plan was always to take shakespeare next semester. the plan has been to take the shakespeare class since i started undergra #because quite literally i have been interested in shakespeare since i was 11 so. this is a long term interest #but now my brain is like hehe...... what if....... shakespeare ma #BITCH. where did this come from. hello???? #first of all. do you know how many shakespeare ma programs exist in the world? like 4. #second. brain what. where is this coming from #and now it's trying to convince me of stupid things like 'you should try and learn latin again' #in what WORLD have i ever enjoyed learning latin (<- i have literally studied latin 3 seperate times in my life) #the answer is never. i have never enjoyed it. and i have hardly retained any of it #but ohhhhh boy the urge.... The Urges.... #this specific mood always comes up whenever i get back into dark academia stuff again bc i am predictable and not unique #and i always get back into dark academia when it starts to get cold outside bc it's like something awakens within me #that goes 'oh right. we like academia. also the aesthetic hits' and i go FUCK. YOU'RE RIGHT. #but also here i am. writing this tumblr text post instead of doing my actual academics. so. it's all fake anyways #oh! but im very hype abt this shakespeare class actually #bc i think we might have a performance project.... which probably im going to dread when i actually have to do it #but <3<3<3<3<3 i love performing shakespeare so much. it's so much fun to me. #said like a true theater kid fr but. truly and honestly i miss doing that the most from theatre. and i didn't even really get to do it much #mostly just when i got to pick monologues out to do in class in between performances and stuff like that #so. i am a little bit hype. to do that. hopefully it is actually fun and not a complete drag #okay okay im done ranting