#he builds the wall after he argues with river about nearly killing fawn because theres no way hes letting any of those two-

[sidesteppostinghours]

hey *with the intention of fucking up your siblings relationships even more*

#thinking thoughts about cyrus abusing his shields and shutting his thoughts down completely post robbery fight #endless guilt over what happened and unwilling paranoia over anybody in his thoughts (even if its *literally his siblings*) #he cant cut the chord to the connection. wont even think about it. he needs to feel them /there/ to some capacity #but hes willing to build a fort around it #only allowing passing thoughts to leak through #he builds the wall after he argues with river about nearly killing fawn because theres no way hes letting any of those two- #-feel him get so fragile again #and then he argues with fawn about (gestures vaguely at everything) and the insistence that they /need/ to feel him there is enough to- #-make those walls crumble #also this is very much unrelated to everything i put here #but cyrus takes 4 years to be finally convinced to break out the farm himself and. yk. i think itd be a little goofy silly to see #fawn and rivers reaction to him clinging so stubbornly to being a hero and still failing #cyrus becker(s) #nmoc: fawn becker #nmoc: river becker #keeping up with the beckers #pulp speaks