#he def stared @ the gifts for 15mins before doing anything w them

[rowonlgc]

minjun asked one of the hyungs in dorm F for permission and left a box on top of rowon’s bed. inside the main box, there would be a smaller, black velvet one, and inside there would be a white gold bracelet. it’s simple, with an inscription inside that reads ‘from the first to the last season. always.’

the second parcel is a thinner one and is wrapped in silk paper. inside there are 4 polaroid pictures that show a view from a rooftop at night. between the buildings, the sun setting can be seen, except for the last picture, which was taken at night with the light coming from the said buildings. every picture would have an inscription of the season it had been taken. along with it, there was also a drawing of a cozy kitchen, a sketch of a dream, an inspiration, along with a letter written in the back

to my dearest hyung,     I spent a long time trying to find the perfect gift for you but whenever i thought about it, they all seemed…not suitable. so let me write about something else. first, let’s get the main reason you’re reading this letter off the way, which is to wish you the best of birthdays. we will be practicing so it’s a shame i won’t get to talk to you the entire day, but i would like to wish your journey is full of accomplishments, and i promise i will be closely watching and cheering for you every day.     i sincerely want to thank you, hyung. i know it’s your birthday but i can never stop thanking you for being around me this whole time. i’m not the easiest person to be with, and sometimes not the best, i know, but i value every moment i get to spend with you. thank you for all the late-night talks on the rooftop, borrowed hoodies and the movies watched during the days off, thank you for showing up in my swimming competition, chuseok and cooking meals together. without you i’m certain i wouldn’t realize home isn’t a place, but a feeling and sometimes, a person. for every spring, summer, autumn and winter to come, i hope i can still be by your side.     happy birthday,     love, minjunnie.

  little by little, bit by bit.

  he reads the letter, then he reads it again.

  for years, he thought happiness only came in highs – heart racing, adrenaline rushing, bright smiles, and bright lights – temporary, inevitably timed, like each season passing by.  what he finds in these written words is not that.  there’s a mellow warmth that resides within him, one that he’s nurtured for a while now.  it’s subtle, but it’s stable.  most days, it goes without acknowledgment.

  but little by little, bit by bit, this warmth makes itself known.

  he feels it flicker when he wakes on his side, wrist resting against his pillow where his head lies.  the white-gold bracelet is the first thing he sees.  it’s a good morning he has come to recognize.

  he feels it flutter when he stops by the window to water the small plant that’s reminiscent of the ones detailed in the cozy kitchen.  it sits across from the illustration that he has framed on his desk.

  and he feels it flare when he looks through the polaroids in the exact same spot they were taken.  the last one – winter – differs from the rest.  he wonders, albeit briefly, if he was there that night and if that is why.

  little by little, bit by bit.

  he leans against the rooftop and watches the sun as it starts to set.  words aren’t enough.  he has thanked minjun for the gifts, shown him his wrist, his desk, the polaroids tucked safely in the back of his phone case – but none of that captures how happy they make him.  no, not just happy.  warm.  comfortable.

  a small smile settles on his lips.

  he can get used to this.

#lgcmjun #damn....... Damn.... #this actually changed him as a person im ngl #he def stared @ the gifts for 15mins before doing anything w them #THANK YOU SO MUCH this is so incredibly thoughtful im ahh hh hhh #tl — bday xxiii. #int — minjun.