#he loved sugimoto and thats why he shot him and he loved asirpa

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Ogata loved his mother so much that he killed her and it drives me insane every single day. He loved her so much that he watched her suffer and smile and cook the same thing - monkfish stew - over and over and over again because she thought it would bring his father back to her. He watched her futile grief over a love that was never hers to begin with and he loved her monkfish stew but it was all she ever cooked and he went out and shot ducks in the vain hope it would help but it was still just the same stew over and over and over again

She saw straight through him. She smiled but it was empty and she never truly saw him and she got worse every day. She waited for Hanazawa, every single day, and either nobody helped or she was too far gone to accept it but Ogata loved her and so he put rat poison into her food and he watched her die because if he really loved you he’d come to the funeral and you’ll get to see him one last time and - that was love. That was love, that was love, that was love

#golden kamuy #ogata hyakunosuke #meta post #sinking my teeth into the meat of him to shake him #okay I had to add this tag but #not to make this sugio I truly think ogata hurts the people he loves #because he doesn't know how to process that affection or emotion properly #he loved sugimoto and thats why he shot him and he loved asirpa #and that's why he wanted to hurt her