#he used the same language i was using march 2021. like i can relive those emotions in an instant

[southislandwren]

uhh so basically i love my club i love my friends. the darkness has been staved off for another day

#we had SO much fun and i did a great job with the social media so i feel really good rn :) #im full of good food and i had a blast bonding with some freshmen and one of my already good friends #diary post #also talked someone out of suicide on yik yak like 5 minutes ago so like.... lol #idk how successful i was but i at least got him to postpone until monday #told him to dm me if he needed to talk. i can ESA for this dude bc i know exactly what hes going through #he used the same language i was using march 2021. like i can relive those emotions in an instant #like youre so right god IS telling me to come home. and wouldnt it feel soooo good to just go home #but also. how will you watch the sunrises and see the snow glittering in the sunlight. how will you eat good food #how will you feel the warmth from tea spreading through your body. how will you pet a soft kitty and feel it purr against your hand. #how will you feel pride at accomplishing something and feel the joy of sunlight against your skin. #god is calling us home yeah. that comes with the brain chemistry. but you have to say NO i want to stay out and play a little longer #sam went home early but i still have things i want to do and when im ready to go home he will be waiting for me #for now though. i will think about my family waiting for me and i will say sorry. but i'm going to play until i'm good and tired. #lol that was not where this post was originally going but like. shit happens i guess lmao #idk man i'm still in a good mood! might slam out the rest of this essay than go to bed #im like 80% finished. maybe 85% idk. but i'm getting close <3 #then tomorrow i have my management paper and do the dishes and do laundry and cook pasta for mon and tues #probably clean my house #and ALSO have to make 2 loaves of banana bread for club meeting tomorrow #banana bread is my specialty i can make a mean loaf. so for our 'substitution' activitiy im making 1 loaf with eggs #and 1 loaf with banana instead of egg. ive done it before and it comes out pretty well #and someone else is making brownies and one of my dear friends is making a savory thing too #then the club activities are the food. opening a gift box from a different schools corresponding club. and that might be it but i forget #ANYWAY okay im going to finish off this post. i got things to do