#hear ryan snore and feel how he clings onto me while min protectively holds onto us both

[1980ssunflower]

missing them...

#ot3: ❤rhyme💛easy💙 #tape entry circa 1980 #im feeling so lost in everything and i just need my min and ryan so bad to feel better... #i just wish i was HOME w them both that i was home in the 1980s #i want to take a nap w them both im so tired #im tired all the time lately #id like for them both to take me on a surprise roadtrip #to pop in a mixtape they made for me and jam out #to hear all the songs they associate w me and ones they know i love #or tuning into the radio #there wasnt nearly as many ads back then... theyd play a good handful of songs w practically nothing inbetween #and then throw in a couple ads real quick to get back to the songs #we can order take out and listen to the radio in the background and talk abt where we're going next #taking over as driver and looking over at min whos looking over the map while i hear ryan playing his acoustic in the back and singing...💖 #night spent sleeping together in the back of the van and others sleeping in a motel room #i love the idea of that kind of freedom w them both that my home is wherever they are as long as we have eachother #but i also love the idea of just always being able to go home to them w our own cozy living space #to fall asleep w min and ryan on the couch and to wake up to the tv static after they went off the air #hear ryan snore and feel how he clings onto me while min protectively holds onto us both #the sounds of their breathing the warmth of their bodies the rhythm of their heartbeats... its all just so comforting #and being able to wake up w them to do things like help min style his hair in the morning and make breakfast together while ryan sleeps #to eventually wake him up w the promise of a tasty breakfast and kisses 💛💙 #i just miss them... more than fucking anything #i would finally be ok and happy if i could go home to them both #to have a free life w them making music and having fun #every part of me always every moment of every day longs for them and misses them... and loves them...