#heeeellllllppppppppp

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

me: hermes is a painfully accurate example of how some ways of defending yourself against certain kinds of insidious emotional abuse, gaslighting, ableism, and therapy speak can warp you into a person whose learned helplessness and lack of perspective can result in doing really shitty things, and who passes that abuse along in different forms (hi meteion) + lashes out in disproportionate ways + can be deeply hypocritical.

me: as a disabled person in a society where our systemic mass murder via pressure into government-sanctioned suicide is on the rise, the ancients' society is beyond fucking upsetting to me. i have zero sympathy for anything to do with them pre-apocalypse except for the effects of living in that system.

me: that said, they are a good opportunity to remind oneself that there are children in that burning building; that a society being fucked does not mean they deserve to be wiped out; and that that does not mitigate the harm they do, nor mean that its victims are not allowed to be angry or resist it, including the victims inside it.

me, booboo the fool: oh, this youtube essay about hermes looks interesting--

#final fantasy xiv #ffxiv hermes #heeeellllllppppppppp #i haven't even been looking for discourse in fact i have been trying to avoid it #i just wanted hermes meta and every other site i've so much as glanced at for it so far has been This #hermes is so so fucked up and so interesting #and Relatable in so many ways which simultaneously are incredibly validating; and can make for an uncomfortable look in the mirror #and people trying to like. diagnose him with NPD and say he's The Worst Ever Actually and is basically 'they all hated me' goob #while saying things like 'i can't be ableist i have depression' #and while accusing anyone who says the ancients did anything actually wrong at all of being anti-indigenous genocide apologists #is so much. it's So Much. oh my god #anyway i have been greatly enjoying this game and it is incredibly refreshing to see this kind of thing represented and called out lmao #FFtag #ffxivtag #genocide cw #abuse cw #abuse denial cw #abuse apologia cw #gaslighting cw #ableism cw #the salt files #(also god don't get me started on hyth/lodaeus people who do this Love Him and Think He's Super Sweet and Gay) #(when he is a horrible person in specific ways that make my skin crawl right off my body. the way he talks about meteion jesus christ) #(if your blorbo is fucked up that's fine but GOOOOOOD GOD) #warning: worm grass #endwalker spoilers

[reverse-hermit]

helpppppp. heeeellllllppppppppp.