#hes pretty different in the diary in that hes not skeptical of antediluvians and gehenna in the same way

[hydrostorm]

its impossible for vampire the masquerade to have a protagonist which i actually love when it comes to how it effects the storytelling of the lore but beckett does have protagonist syndrome. he wants to change the course of everything but the context of the world makes that agonizing to pursue, because that world is not meant for people who want to change things. it is exactly like trying to combat capitalism.

#i feel like throughout his (un)lifetime he had to gain that kind of motivation somehow #and that it might have gone well as he figured out more and more about how to accomplish that #i mean im not sure exactly but like #maybe bloodlines was a bit of an awakening #i cant help but feel like anatole was involved in this realization.. maybe not initially but if you consider the jyhad diary #hes pretty different in the diary in that hes not skeptical of antediluvians and gehenna in the same way #like if the events of bloodlines was a game changer for him it could be seen as like #kind of reigning in that confidence or slowing down his hubris of being the Knower of Everything and breaker of the jyhad #what i like is that even then it does not slow down fast enough. #i mean anatole had his own motivations to some degree perhaps but they were close friends for . i think at least a century #they must have evolved together as people (which is why i choose to believe anatole was the reason beckett realized he could be wrong) #especially in how beckett specifically says ''theres just a slight chance. best be safe'' #anatoles foresight proves itself constantly but its still just foresight #beckett believes anatoles foresight even over his own skepticism. i think this is outright stated #IDK THIS POST TURNED INTO POINTLESS RANT listen. i am buzzing with thoughts and tumblr is my only outlet #the jyhad is vampire capitalism by the way. vtm loremasters do not come for me