#his family thinks ofme as his girlfriend

[depressedzelda]

venting bc i feel like shit sorry always doin dis lol

#i stay over several nights a week at my friends #who drives like 30 mins both ways to get me and bring me bacj #his family thinks ofme as his girlfriend #obvious that i have a crush on him and him on me #except i dont want it and really i just miss my ex terribly #to the point i do wish we were back together. #he emailed me again talking friendly and normal to me #and its fucked me up #im supposed to play d&d again today bc we didnt get far last night #i just want ro go home and be alone #im in his guest bedroom to take a nap after i just cried in front of him for the 50th time #i feel like im leading him on #i hate that feeling #i just kind of wish my ex was a better person #i wish things had been different.