#i barely do anything on my weekends and its such a bummer 😩 all this time and nothing enjoyed about it lmao

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Just found another werewolf story I thought was going good and about 10 chapters in, an Alpha who started to imprint on the protagonist decided to, instead of like, talking to her at all, or even letting her know he has any sort of feelings for her at all, especially since she is kind of an outcast and many avoid her and even he barely even talks to her, this guy decides to, just straight up, in front of the whole pack, suddenly step forward during the monthly claiming ceremony and just be like "oh yeah by the way I want her", just, hadn't even told her he likes her and is doing the equivalent of publicly proposing to her in front of the entire community (oh and before this he had pulled her in a dark closet and kissed her lowkey without her consent and never even told her it was him)

And this story has this stupid ass concept that I initially liked where, the wolf can imprint on someone and that can create a sort of mate bond, but like, it's presented as "this guy gets a crush on this girl, so the girl's wolf begins to like the guy even as the girl is kind of, doesn't care about him and the female wolf is constantly badgering the girl to give the guy attention even though the girl doesnt want to" so its also like, now the girl is having her thoughts and emotions influenced because an entirely separate person had a crush in her? That isn't fair? Why should she be literally brainwashed and forced to reciprocate just because HE likes HER? That isn't even love???

But it goes one step further because the human girl is rightfully saying "uh wow this is WAY too fast, I need time, i didnt even know you liked me dude, this is way too much all at once" and her wolf I shit you not says "don't you dare" and, takes over her body and publicly accepts the claim FOR her, and then they pass out, and the girl wakes up and she says "wait i didn't agree, that was my wolf, don't I get a choice?" And she's told NO, just straight up told NO YOU DON'T GET A CHOICE. And THEN the guy is all "since I'm an Alpha I HAVE to mark you TODAY otherwise my wolf will take over" so not only is she being forced into this relationship against her will but she has to be basically soul bound the exact same day and probably have to have sex? And this isn't acknowledged as like, a legit horror story plotline at all, the guy even tells her "you have no choice, just like I didn't have a choice in my wolf imprinting on you" and it's like dude that's worse, you didn't get a crush until something inside you decided that for you? Then you don't actually love her as far as I'm concerned?

But anyways I just really like, resent that a lot of these stories literally RIP any and all sort of choice and agency away from the female proganist and you can still just HEAR some of these authors going like "don't you just love your wish fulfillment girlboss story? Isnt it so #yasqueen?" And its like "ma'am the female protagonist is literally in a dungeon without food water or sunlight JUST because she refused to have sex with the abusive male love interest"

#i know i know its pot calling the kettle black but still #ughhhh i wanna write #i actually am considering seeking out a psychistrist yo talk about adhd. this executive dysfunction or whatever is getting worse #i barely do anything on my weekends and its such a bummer 😩 all this time and nothing enjoyed about it lmao