#i did raider time with mr hidaka but elanor came with? she keeps following me to his class whenever i go there for raider time

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#rest of the day was okay. tara b came to my french class even though she usually has chemistry fifth hour #i did raider time with mr hidaka but elanor came with? she keeps following me to his class whenever i go there for raider time #or i mean she did twice now. and i don’t know why. i feel like she’s judging him. but probably im overthinking it #i read his moral psychology book while i was there and i listened to him talking to a different student #not like eavesdropping it was a loud public conversation and it was him and samontrae who i know so it was like. not really a private thing #just talking about life and stuff and mr h’s plans for the future. he’s going to get another masters degree starting next year but still be #teaching at the school at the same time. online classes. anyway i learned about the foundations of groupism and eusocial groups like hives #and now im home. we now move on to the future part of the update: for starters i have work today at 4:30 #tomorrow morning i have two hours of nothing then finishing my chem project then sewing then two worksheets then movie then home #and it’s zeya’s birthday so im not staying after or doing anything like that. and then thursday is the last day of school #i finish all my projects if there’s anything that i haven’t done already. and then after philosophy club it’s all over #i want to stay behind and say goodbye to my chemistry teacher but some of my friends will probably be here and i can’t talk to him in front #of everyone. or if i do it would just feel weird and strange and not like normal and it wouldn’t be a real goodbye #i already said to him in the letter i wrote that it would be a terrible goodbye and that’s why it’s a good thing that it’s literally not #like idk maybe i’ll re evaluate over the summer and decide it’s not good for me to be staying after so often again #but it’s not like i’ll never see him next year no matter what happens like. im not graduating none of these goodbyes are forever #so it doesn’t matter that i can’t do goodbyes because none of them are real and it doesn’t matter. so i can stop being so scared of it all #this isn’t even hardly a goodbye time of year it’s a hello time of year i might literally be able to video call my friends #its been a really long time and that will finally maybe be possible again and summer is supposed to be a good thing #so im going to treat it like a good thing. for starters though my mom wants me to clean my room #so. im going to do that now. i love you guys i’ll see you later #me. my post. mine. #also i’ll move back to my old blog before the night is over. i might even do that now