#i don't think it's a coincidence that echo really begins to ~shut down (as bellamy experiences it)

[meredithbeckham]

don't you dare cry.

a softer world, the 100.

#echo kom spacekru #echo kom azgeda #echoedit #the100edit #t100edit #* #a softer world #echo and trauma :( #echo and repression echo and compartmentalization #if you cry they'll hear you so i didn't #i don't think it's a coincidence that echo really begins to ~shut down (as bellamy experiences it) #after the red sun. where they tranquilized themselves out of fear they would harm emori as they had once harmed costia once harmed bellamy #by way of mount weather under nia's orders #all of that trauma echo had been able to start to process on the ring now that they for the first time in their entire lives had access to #support and safety brought to the surface in a brutal and overwhelming and terrifying way #as echo was introduced to the primes - so familiar to someone who knows what it is to be broken down and made anew #all experiences that they likely couldn't have spoken about and regardless didn't have time to do so #i just get so sad about them #echo who has been fighting to survive their entire life #ash who became echo to do so - who was forced to bury their identity and all that came before to do so #echo who has associated 'weakness' such as crying expressing emotion etc with death their entire lives #'like a good little azgeda spy' their face when bellamy says this #echo's trauma weaponized against them :(( (i understand him and i love him i just cry)