#i dont know yet how frequent or nearby racing is but at least it would be another fun thing for her!

[whippetcrimes]

We started the session being comfortable putting our nose in and then immediately pulling back for a treat. We end our session comfortably (loosely) bucked in

#with a little walk around the house and a loooot of treats. then off and done #and she wanted to keep going too #but i know I'd end up pushing too far. better to stop early... especially since im not a very good trainer and undoing issues would be hard #anyways. this because i want to try whippet racing #and i know sometimes its required for coursing so may as well be ready for anything #or like. “a natural relaxed yet alert stance” as the racing rulebook says... im assuming basically stacked? #pretty sure that's how she's arranged for the measurement wicket at roll call #she doesn't like standing on the board and she doesn't like the wicket either so a couple people helped me arrange her #would like to not need that. and that wont be allowed for racing so like. double the reason to improve #idk idk i just want her to have a full enriched life. as much as I'm able to give #fastcat is frequent nearby but seems kinda disappointing for her. since its not really that much running/chasing #lure coursing is infrequent and very satisfying for her #i dont know yet how frequent or nearby racing is but at least it would be another fun thing for her! #getting a rc car is in line with that goal. more frequent fun chase games + conditioning for other things we do #we just dont have any fast friends nearby so she rarely really runs the way i know she wants to #anyways. this has been a rant #whippet #misdemeanor #dogblr #petblr

[laprimera]

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MUSES THOUGHTS💭 - o p e n

You have so many thoughts you don't know where to start..! Most are lofty, sapphic, and excited. You're absolutely livid you two finally came together after a decade of pinning. Rika was always in arm's reach but never to hold each other for the longest time. You were to stay professional and an icon to look up too even with your closest peers. Romance was saved for the passing glances when she didn't notice or turned away from sight--

Until remarkably dear Rika stepped over uncertainty first. It's been a windfall since down to the proposal. Now you call her wife despite the ceremony not even being planned yet. It's been an ideal and charming life since then despite the pressures...

Oh the many many pressures...

... Actually you're scared to admit it's been near breaking point lately. Heart racing, anxiety, stress turned into fever flashes. You reach across the bed and have a momentary panic attack if your fingers dont feel her nearby. Your new fear is waking up alone and not knowing where she is. You have incredibly real dreams of her empty desk and a dread of knowing something terrible happened.

You could not help.

You told her the first time how worried you were, that running off like that was not okay. They were together in this right? You're her wife, we're best friends; you need to communicate. Let me help or at least tell me how I can help if something goes wrong. You are not some relic or monarch to be guarded. You never wanted to be that with Paldea, with the people she called friends, and especially with her spouse. That sapphic warm hum turned into a cold drop in the stomach. But it was going to be fine. Communication is important. You heard each other out the first time it happened.

...

' ... I dont want you to be reckless alone. '

And you don't know if her reckless nature would make it a shortcoming. Rika was well meaning but incredibly self-sacrificing to a fault. Many a times too reckless and didn't stop first to think before charging head forward at the expense of herself and the charge she was trying to help. Oh the times she's been so hurt and came back with painful scars inside and out....

She's done it twice now. Is she listening to you at all?

Can I trust you again...?

Before you can think about it more you wake up with a start. It's your bedroom at 4 AM. In the dark you can make Rika out and the panic fades quickly. It's another odd dream again...they've been more frequent as of late. They had lulled for some time after having the comfort of someone else next to you at night but .. it's not working anymore. You sigh and wipe away saline from your face where tears must've been and it refracted the low light in the bedroom like a crystal strangely. Just a trick of her frights probably. Another look at your fingertips and its just water.

Back into the sheets you go and you hold onto her tighter.

I love you so much. You've been fighting for a long time. You don't have to fight things alone anymore.

#inbox. ･ﾟ ✹. #monterraverde #all this and heaven too . x monterraverde ･ﾟ ✹ #this is the abridged version actually. the first draft was even longer and more dramatic #but ya know. still teared up a little #somewhere scribbled in the margins of her thoughts: '' I think your 'friends' are sus and encouraging bad behavior by the way : / '' #'' im this close to drop kicking them off the mountain. you're lucky I dont let the impulsive thoughts win '' GBFUIDF