#i end up slipping and the. desesperation of my affection scares ppl

[gorefetishizer]

i think im probably good in small quantities

#ppl love me. ppl r rlly glad to be around me. but only in small quantities i think #if i let myslef be greedy with other ppls time i rlly cant keep myself from needing more and then more #i end up slipping and the. desesperation of my affection scares ppl #or just. idk. i only allow myself to want a few ppls company and end up. making them have to bear the weight of my. need of affection #but when im subdued when. when i keep myself away im very nice to be around. i dont ask for much and i will give a lot. gladly #i think my way of caring of loving is very nice for a little while it makes ppl feel special but i. cant keep it up. cuz its not #its not unninterested i desesperately want ppl to like me so i will give myself and then give myslef and theres not a lot left other that #the endless lonelyness with wich i carry basicaly. every action of mine #i. think i live in servitude in hopes someone will tell me theres nothing more important than. having me by their side. and be thanked #bit thats not happening #cuz thats not possible. ppl are always most important to themselves. wich is the right way to go on about life #living for other ppl its not healthy but i. dont know how to live other wise