#i finally ate some chicken noodle soup and apple sauce too and ive finally had some wonderful and amazing water

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I always forget how people back in the olde days used to just die so easily from the flu, until I get the flu myself dhhdhdhf because on one hand I know our medicine is just soo much better now a days but on the other hand I have the immune system of a dead man and once I get sick I'm like the ye olde victorian child on a death bed dhdhdhhd it's been 4 days and I just NOW can get on my phone to watch videos and text, and eat and drink water, and coherently string words together and do more than just lay in bed and moan in pain, and sweat and cough in sick delirium 😭

#im being so deadass #i only slept once between just staring at whatever i was hallucinating on the ceiling and that was last night #and i dreamt that i was eating glass #i know its because ive hurt my stomach and ribs from so much coughing because i can barely talk #at least in my dream i was picky about the glass i was eating LMAOOO i was like NO I WANT THE BUBBLE AMBER DRINKING GLASS NOM NOM #and raided a flea market just to find it and eat it #i dont fucking know #i finally ate some chicken noodle soup and apple sauce too and ive finally had some wonderful and amazing water #i swear i never enjoyed it more in my LIFE #i hate being sick because i get so sick so easily and soo soo so bad #fucking rough man #i had no idea it was Saturday until i just checked #fucking was Tuesday last I remembered god damnit #also its really scary looking in the mirror because I dont look well or look like myself right now #body image warning #but my face looks so hallow and dark and scratched up because apparently I either was scratching in my sleep or something happened #and I'm soo much thinner than the last time I looked in a mirror and got out of bed like 4 days ago #my beard is big and shaggy and i need to shave but i really really don't look good and its hard to do any self care #when you go from looking healthy and glowy to pale and dark and thin in just a couple days #like fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that #im caught in a state of #this isn't reality #which i know isnt safe or good but ill be okay because i know im just in shock and that i cant push myself through it #especially in this weakened state #i just need to take it slow and steady #drink my water stay in my blanket and eat what i can and take my meds and thank FUCK I came through the fog and rest