#i had a few people like that in the past ans miss that. but theyre so hard to come by and you meet them by chance

[alchemiclee]

sometimes I say words and sometimes people like/reblog those words (sometimes even adding a tag comment!!!!) and i'm always like "omg do these words make sense to you??? do you like the nonsense that came out of my brain????????" it's always super surprising and makes me do a little happy dance.

part of me wants to talk about that nonsense with them more, but the other part of me is bad at people and too afraid 🥲😅

#words #in which lee misses having long autistic rambling conversations with people about interests where we both send paragaraph upon paragraph #as if we are trying to write a novel about the thing and sometimes that conversation would span over a few days and we keep going #until we have thoroughly disussed the thing with as many ideas as we can come up with #its hard to find that kind of person. they have to have the same interest at exactly the same intensity and have a general same opnion on it #same as in they like it and think its good vs disliking and wanting to debare rather than discuss. i hate debate. and they must be creative #and good at continuing the conversation and going with thr flow in a way that we both fit each others conversation style and yeah #i had a few people like that in the past ans miss that. but theyre so hard to come by and you meet them by chance #its not something you can force. its like an accident. so “looking for someone” doesnt work. have to feel their vibe and energy and match #anyway reading people's star rail analysis and theories and thoughts and whatnot is fun #since im too bad at people to talk to ans get along with just anyone. reading posts takes out the pressure to socialize correctly #but its still lonely not sharing my thoughts. thats why when random person likes or reblogs my posts i feel seen/heard #its nice. especially if they add tags. it feels almost like we reciprocated and interacted or something #i was seen and heard and they also are seen and heard by me and im honoured they also said words!!!!!! even if just tags on a reblog #anyway someone reblogged a post i made and added their thoughts in the tags and ive been thinking about it all day 🫣🥲😭🥺