#i have to be perfect.have to have my life together. now ive impressed them with an apartment.

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#chatty #i do work extra hard to prove myself because of transphobia #like as a direct result of coming out to my family #and them finding a way to make every possible problem a reason why im transgender #so what choice do i have other than to be perfect! #i have to be perfect.have to have my life together. now ive impressed them with an apartment. #they literally said to me... yknow youre doing everything right. youre a nice person you work hard #except for this one thing! this mental illness that you have! #i literally made a choice one day... during the early transitioning days... you have to work hard and do more shit than anyone else #so they CANT mysteriously cut all your hours when you transition #of course other more positive motivation mixed in there but its a real scar i have #now that i can quote unquote pass if i want to #i see the male privilege... people just respect me and take me seriously or look to me for direction when i dont know what im doing #its just one of those things i cant explain to cis people #and i cant connect with to people #because first i have to deal with coming out... then i have to tastefully dance around my fucking abusive family... #i definitely have it very good because a im white b i live in bc. #but sometimes i forget how bad it is #i almost didnt make it