#i haven't been a big fan of mcr in years but my whole online presence on tumblr is based around it

[asthevermincrawls]

ugh

#never thought id make an all tags vent post but im going thru it i guess #i haven't been a big fan of mcr in years but my whole online presence on tumblr is based around it #and almost all my beloved mutuals are mcr mutuals #i want to actually centre my dash/blog around things i actually like again but i dont want to cut off mutuals! they're important to me #and i DO still like mcr. but if i had made this blog this year instead of 5 years ago i would be following 2 mcr blogs and not like. 10 #yanno? #i wanna focus more on vulture culture and nature and writing and stuff like that but i dont want to make a new blog either. ugh!!! #idk maybe i just need to use tumblr less #i still listen to mcr every once and a while and im finishing a dd fic i started a couple years ago but thr fandom is just. so exhausting #and i hate that all my mcr posts get way more notes than my non-mcr posts #I don't want to make mcr fanart again for a multitude of reasons but i feel like people still follow me for that #and are disappointed when i post things im more interested in #and i hate that as soon as i step outside my bubble of mcr blogs its immediately just. people saying the most insane obsessive shit. #and maybe its just #because i dont like them that much anymore #but that shit freaks me out !! i dont like it here! maybe im just a hater but maybe try listening to a different band for a little while #go for a walk or something #i think maybe i just hate fandom #if it wasn't for the fact that i got into it super young i probably never would have joined the mcr fandom #which would still be a bummer because ive grown a lot as an artist and met some great people through bandom #but im beginning to find that im not really a Fandom Person. #i dont really feel the need to go online after finishing a really good movie/show/book and start posting about it and making up headcanons #i mean i want to write arcane fanfic at some point but thats about it #idk #this was all a long and incoherent ramble #maybe i should just make a new blog. but im really attached to this one #anyway pls like if you read i feel embaressed for spewing all this into the tags #a.txt