#i hope non is alive thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sob sob sob

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Just rewatched DFF ep 9 and I really do think this show is so beautifully meticulously artistically written, with themes and layers and so much thoughtful care. I trust wherever it leads, even if it doesn't lead to the places I want most in my heart (PerthNon vs. PheeTan revenge teams at crosshairs, culminating in a heartfelt brotherly reunion, lol if playfully grudging at how much they fucked up each other's plans despite having the same goals, and a Non who has moved on with someone who has life experiences similar enough to his to actually understand him, listen to him, and trust him. But most importantly A HEARTFELT BROTHERLY REUNION). It's just always fun to watch a show where you can expect to be surprised, you can expect to be angry at the characters, you can expect to not get what you want, and you can still expect to appreciate the writing and enjoy the experience. Love to let the story seduce me you see

#btw im not knocking phee for not understanding or trusting non he is a realistic teenage boy #but i am not expecting the narrative to have him confront his inadequacies as wannabe superboyfriend #like he may confront them with jin but i don't think he's going to really get the scope of them with non #thusly i don't want him to choose non out of obligation or guilt i want non to have his own very alive life without him #phee hurts me the most because he's probably the character i relate to most. for better or worse.... #but!!! the real point of this post is that i trust the writing and i trust the show #it doesn't have to go in any direction i predict for me to be satisfied and mesmerized #i hope non is alive thoughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sob sob sob #i hope non and new survive together sob sob sob #they make me SO SAD i can't cope #everything new's parents kept from him 'for his own good' to preserve his golden boy future #at cost to him and his relationship with them and his relationship with his brother #there is no way he would have let them continue needlessly sending $$ for two years straight if he knew what a hardship it was #which means he had no idea what it took to support him in england while non was at home being blamed for his family's money problems #new carried his family's expectations on his shoulders and strove and strove and strove the way his parents wanted #and utterly failed his brother in the process #then strove and strove to make that right #and utterly failed his parents #non carried his family's disappointments and strove and strove to find anything to live for outside of them #and found only more isolation and horror #but his brother actually loves him so much #i need him and non to get their hug #but if he dies heroically hallucinating the hug #or any other possible writing choice #i trust! i do trust!! i will appreciate the writing #i'll sob my eyes out. and want fixit fic. and appreciate the writing #dff #dead friend forever #dff spoilers #prathipsits