#i just know im still worried about restating old patterns

[womenaresohot]

I really want to be a good partner someday. I'm so worried I won't be able to

#i like him. i really do #i just know im still worried about restating old patterns #even though im better now #about some things #i can say no #i can stand firm in an opinion #even if it isnt his #but i know its hard not being in a relationship for him #and i did everything i could to avoid this #i noted at the beginning of this relationship that we should probably just continue being friends and not say anything until i could commit #and we mutually decided we didnt want to do that and we wanted to be open #and i told him that i wasnt ready and i wasnt sure when i would be #and i tell him all the time that if he's not confortable he should tell me #so i know its not on me. i foresaw this coming and did my best to prevent it #its just hard seeing him so hurt #and knowing he deserves a relationship