#i know it should come up naturally but :((( baaaah. i'm old. def would like to settle down and try to find someone who is at least

[90sbee]

In my head I'm the one you come home to. You hug me and we have tea together. 

In my head I am your hero and I can kiss your forehead goodnight. 

In my head you look at me. In my head I had (have) a chance.

#this is just abt being interested in women who are in relationships lol #which is stupid !!!! but it happens to me so often #cannot even finish forming the idea of 'maybe i could ask her out' before i find out said woman is in a long term relationship or something #and i go DAMN IT NOT AGAIN JSKDDKKS #no but literally like last time i thought hey my classmate aint ugly. she kinda fun tho. what if... #and next class she mentions her girlfriend and i was like FOR FUCK'S SAKE JDK #at like she isn't straight the gaydar is working still but. c'monnnn. #but tbh it's not like i'd know what to do with a single woman been single for way too long bye #i am just so awkward at flirting. need to poke a lady with a long stick and be like #sorry for the odd vibes. wanna cuddle. #we struggling in here creo que efectivamente llego sola a los 30 y capaz despues de eso tmb lol #boludeces y reclamos mios(? #ALSO ALSO #i'm just not sure how to fucking communicate abd be like #hey. flirting may be fun and everything but. i want something serious and long-term #bc it sounds hella boring bye #i know it should come up naturally but :((( baaaah. i'm old. def would like to settle down and try to find someone who is at least #considering that too #but it feels so off putting to just be honest abt that. sobbing btw.