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orcelito · 1 year
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that one bookmark is gone and on one hand im glad i dont have to see it anymore but on the other hand im a little embarrassed at the thought of them having seen me have a whole mini spiral about it at like 5 am. like sorry random person ig
#speculation nation#i shouldnt be allowed to make posts in the middle of sleeping times#i wake up all the time while trying to sleep & then i check social media & also my ao3 stats page#usually this is fine but that bookmark note hit Just the right insecurity in me for me to make some pathetic posts about it on my tumblr#like yes i Am insecure about ppl not liking what im doing in the story lately & thinking im taking too long :') thank U for confirming#the reader support afterwards definitely helped me but Man i dont wanna b known as that author that cant take even a hint of criticism#i mean i kind of am but i dont wanna be KNOWN for it ykno#im cool as a cucumber. u can tell. Absolutely the coolest. thats why i go crying to my tumblr dot com when someone says smth that isnt#complete praise for my work.#like on one hand i dont gotta share this online. it's a privilege that u guys get to read it. so i dont wanna hear ppl disliking it#on the other hand i wish i wasnt that pathetically insecure lmfao#in my defense not having an active beta reader has been fucking with my self confidence re: writing#i was a nervous WRECK when posting the last chapter. and the other chapters too but last chapter especially.#life. is so difficult. alas.#sorry to my readers for my lack of object permanence re: ppl liking my shit.#ive had ppl repeatedly saying they love it and it's still not enough#in largest part bc im insecure about that Changing. so with every chapter im like peeking over like 'do you still like my writing...?'#'do u still like my writing pls respond'#honestly bless u readers who have kept up with discacc & continuously comment & offer me reassuring words here when im down#ur enthusiasm & kind words help me a lot. thank U
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the-hoziest-archive · 2 years
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literally wanna give my readers homework like, in your opinion, what does the author mean with these lines, how do you interpret it, and why DKJKLGJDKLSG no bc i have. always thought i didn’t “get” poetry BECAUSE I DONT IDK? symbolism? metaphors or. the other thing. i looked up examples but idek what it is bc i dont think i read a single interesting poem in school.
ok. yes. ithace. love that one. i read one (1) interesting poem in school.
but anyway i am the kind of person tumblr loves to complain about like ‘ummm didnt u learn anything in school sweetie like about literature and analysing stuff and whatever :)’ no i did not i was too busy making up cool and fun scenarios in my head and avoiding answering questions unless i was the only one who knew the answer. for my ego stroke.
idk honestly the kind of shit they made us read in school like. is it good to read those books/stories/poems? yes. but why was it SO FUCKING BORING for example. i loved the one with the boy and his friends in nazi occupied greece like fuck that book. broke me. over and over again. and its the kind that would definitely interest a teenager. the story of a boy who grows over the 4-year period and idk the reality of every day life during that time? i was into it idk about the other morons
BUT WHY AM I READING ABOUT WHOEVER IS ESCAPING SMYRNI DRINKING PISS OR WHATEVER LIKE. GROSS. THIS WHOLE THING IS GROSS.
ariadne comes to mind that was like. the woman’s rage. shoot that shit into my veins. cant remember if it was poetry or prose but w/e.
they made the illiad boring. like i barely remember it but i was just like. i dont get it. what is this. probably the only thing that really stayed with me was hubris because im like oh okay. thats the thing modern greeks call swearing. thats cool. word etymology, ykno, absolutely normal interests for a 13 yr old. (and ok in reality, having attempted to read the illiad (translated) recently. it is. so slow. like something that i said about homer being the og ADHD bitch like SIR. SIR U ARE RAMBLING. CAN U FOCUS. WHAT HAPPENED TO ACHILLES ITS BEEN? 57 PAGES?
school made THE ODYSSEY BORING. like took us to a play of the odyssey and everyone’s complaining and im like !!!!! this is amazing!!! and we’re talking plays for teenagers, this is not the type of things you would see in the better-known theatres around the world alright. but i loved it its a really good story. really the mythology, and i love that guy odysseus he’s so smart its actually sexy.
(which reminds me i loved the les miserables play too i think the only adaptation i have even seen. not read the book either and at this point will not.)
school, the typical day at school, is honestly. fucking boring as shit. read words write words alright man can we do something that engages my tiny little brain. i am a curious creature ready to learn but y’all are only here to make us sit straight, stay quiet, line up, head down, do your homework and pass these standardised tests. you gotta go to the fucking bathroom on a their made up little timetable like are we in prison or are we free to be children and adolescents <3
anyway, my point is, i thought i wouldn’t ‘get’ poetry and like, wasn’t the kind of person who could write poetry but idk i can’t stop writing it now. like freestyling, yes, homer-like rambling and tangents, but it’s also cathartic and i think? im doing okay? for someone who’s fucking clueless? im gonna start reading poetry i have a tiny book by one of sappho’s followers, good place to start.
and maybe i’ll stop worrying about whether im doing it right bc fuck it man. its my poetry i make up the rules. and i really truly do want to know if the little hidden easter eggs or vague descriptions, attempts at similes, ~ symbolism ~ are at all.. good? easily understood? no fr im gonna give my readers homework.
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boricuagoblin · 6 years
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1-65 man u already be knowin
oof hello long time no see :^) 
1: Do you have a crush at the moment?
ya my gf
2: Have you ever been deeply in love?
don’t think any time previously 
3: Longest relationship you've ever been in?
mm i think currently
4: Have you ever changed for someone?
kind of but not really
5: How is your relationship with your ex?
one of them is fine, the other not at all
6: Have you ever been cheated on?
i sure hope not
7: Have you ever cheated?
nope
8: Would you date someone who's well known for cheating?
not at all tbh
9: What's the most important part of a relationship?
smiles, the goofs and gafs , and idk!! just having someone u care about and who cares abt u i suppose
10: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
serious ones
11: When you are dating someone do you believe in going on "breaks"?
ehh idk, i mean if it’s absolutely necessary and I think things should be discussed before something like that. like Ross from friends is a big asshole thinking it was ok to be w someone else while on break
12: How many people have you ever hooked up with?
none??
13: What's one thing you regret saying/doing in a previous relationship?
saying ily and letting them into my goddamn house oof jeez
14: What age do you think is appropriate for kids to start having sex?
i mean...idk like nothing before 16 i guess?? and w someone yr age,, thats a tricky question idk. In an ideal world i think everyone should wait till of age but as long as their safe and consensual idc
15: Do you believe in the phrase "age is just a number"?
i don’t really go by that saying, but if both people are over 18 whatever ykno 
16: Do you believe in "love at first sight"?
eh no
17: Do you believe it's possible to fall in love on the internet?
sure
18: What do you consider a deal breaker?
uh idk?? i have a lot i guess
19: How do you know it's time to end a relationship?
hell if i fucking know. i guess when someone isn’t happy anymore in the relationship...idk thats a sad question
20: Are you currently in a relationship?
I am!! :)
21: Do you think people who have dated can stay friends?
yeah
22: Do you think people should date their friends?
i mean...building a friendship before dating is kind of necessary i think? maybe not for some people, but personally
23: How many relationships have you had?
3 including rn!!
24: Do you think love can last forever?
One can only hope
25: Do you believe love can conquer all things?
Again, one can only hope
26: Would you break up with someone your parents didn't approve of?
no/?????
27: If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of advice about dating what would it be?
FREAKING TALK!!!!! COMMUNICATE U BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NO ONE CAN READ YR MIND!!!!!!! and tbh thats pretty much it...im still bad at it tho
28: Do you think long distance relationships can work?
sure, probably not for me
29: What do you notice first about another person?
weirdly their nose? and eyes? then hair also What they’re wearing 
30: Are you straight, bi, gay or pansexual?
MMGAY!!!! 
31: Would it bother you if your partner suffered from any mental illness?
bITCH WE BOTH SUFFERING LMFAO
32: Have you ever been in an abusive relationship?
no
33: Do you want to get married one day?
idk! I try not to look too far ahead in the future lmfao
34: What do you think about getting your partner's name tattooed?
i mean..you do you boo but I would never do that I dont think
35: Could you be in a relationship without sex?
i mean yeah why not 
36: Are you still a virgin?
oui
37: What's more important: Looks or personality?
personality tf. someone’s personality also effects how i see people, so if u have an ugly attitude, u Ugly
38: Do you enjoy love films?
they’re all usually the same but Yeah they’re nice, especially lgbt ones oof
39: Have you ever given anyone/received roses?
HELL YEAH!!! i need to get flowers for her instead one day
40: Have you ever had a valentine?
ye
41: What's your imagination of a "perfect date"?
idk probably just chilling im so low maintenance ....like maybe going downtown or smth?? to a garden idk!!! but it has to end w just chillin & watching a movie or smth
42: Have you ever read "Romeo & Juliet"?
NOPE
43: What's more important: Your partner or your friends?
that’s a silly question
44: Would you consider yourself "romantic"?
I mean i gues?? idk i love romantic shit
45: Could you imagine to date one of your current friends?
I am tho
46: Have you ever been "friendzoned"?
LOL i think so yeah,,,
47: Which "famous couple" is your favorite?
me and samira wiley
48: What's your favorite love song?
so many shiut up......
49: Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i hope not..
50: If you're single, why do you think you are?
am not BICH
51: Would you rather date someone who's rich but a douchebag or someone who's poor but a nice guy?
rich but a douchebag, and I have my Gay lover on the side and I buy her really expensive shit with my Ugly Stupid rich husband’s money
52: Are you good at giving other people advices regarding dating/ relationships?
ehh yeah? i guess i dont know
53: Are you jealous of couples when you're single?
i remember i was yeah a little bit
54: How important is it to make a relationship official (p.e. on facebook)?
oh my gsdhajdf i never did that tbh?? not with face book but i think making a relationship official, like putting the label on it is important so that yr both on the same page! unless yall dont wanna label shit then do w/e!!
55: Would you consider yourself "clingy", "overly attached" or "jealous"?
I can be, yeah
56: Have you ever "destroyed" a relationship?
yes and no? they destroyed our romantic relationship and then i destroyed our friendship that she was trying so hard to keep YEET
57: Do you think it's silly to consider suicide because of a broken heart?
i don’t think any reason to consider suicide is silly what the fuck. No
58: Are you the "dominant" or the "submissive" part in a relationship?
dominant As fuck B 
59: Have you ever forgotten important dates like your partner's birthday or your anniversary?
NOPE
60: What's your opinion on open relationships?
they’re cool, and I’m happy for people who are able to do smth like that! I personally could never do anything like that im super monogamous 
61: Who's more important: Your partner or your family?
..uyieks
62: How do you define "cheating"?
like...i think seriously flirting w someone or talking to someone else & developing a romantic relationship w them before ending it w the person yr currently w??? and anything more than that i guess ...yikes 
63: Is watching porn while being in a relationship inappropriate?
i mean idfk?? is it?? i dont think so  ???? idfk
64: Do you think Valentine's Day is overrated?
yeah but its still cute...but fuck capitalism
65: Would you consider yourself a "cuddler"?
FUCK YEAH BOI!!!!!!!!
happy early valentines day :^)
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