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doriscahill · 4 years

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Walking memories

It’s winter and my daily routine begins to sort out. My language slowly progresses. My room at my host family begins to feel like a home. My daily 5 mile walks to and from works were transitioned beyond my sore feet. I could finally absorb my surroundings. The details, the bread, the potato sandwiches and ladies with daily vegetable stands.

They were always there. But now, I could see them as if my sight was taken. I stumbled on linen and material shops to make my way in. It was at these make shift stores, nestled in older buildings on the main street I haggled for huge soft purple blanket and a traditional pattern throw with fringe. Its there the word for pillow case and pillow where taught. Showing pictures from my Cell phone, saying I need this!

Piece by piece over a few weeks my room filled with these and other objects; small mirror and bright lamp, a curtain to hang on my door to the hallway, a knob to screw on my broken draw. A bit of privacy in a house of 8, making my life somewhat normal.

Americans are less social then Georgian culture in certain ways. We generally, are not inspecting each others comings and goings. At every turn, a question “where are you heading, then when are you coming back?” At least 6 of the 8 asking, the baby only cooed, one after another bopping in an out. Checking in with me. This local behavior embraced my walks too. Metro areas in American you’d think only someone would ask for directions and scurry a way.

Then I discover this coffee gig. Not a gig exactly. Coffee is a round the clock social event. I know I was sent to three months of boot camp style training on this, but finally, I see what what those lessons were about.

My first experience where I encounter a super friendly stranger and it became a coffee event, It was this tiny coffee shop, easy to miss, if not for the sign board on the street walk. Daily, I see the sign, but where is this coffee? I had been seeing these signs, but only thought to stop and stare when it could be a good coffee. Ah yes, there it is right under my nose. A tiny non standard width glass door, maybe 28 inches wide.

Georgia’s door openings are inconsistently size, in fact much of the building code is lax. Wires for electric and internet are shared and tangled in various knots on various poles that criss-cross. Doorways should be slowly opened as stairwells can be removed but “not” the door! Mornings I would find glass on my 2 X6 deck with glass from fallen windows above after a good thunderstorm, that opening was not a door exactly, it was a window you climbed out of.

Yes, back to coffee. I walk through the narrow door. A woman who of course speaks Russian or Armenian breaks out in Armenian first. I live a hour and half from Armenia’s capital, Yerevan. Armenians are the most industrious of business people, they own many of the shops and there is friction over this. I need know to use my Georgian to get my coffee, the term for want and coffee are simple for me now and its understood, but that does not deter conversation.

I learn they sell instant coffee, JACOBs and it is sugar on steroids. Her machine for making it is broken, which on many other visits it was broken, so she boils a pot of water, retrieves a very tiny cup, fills it with the dusty powder; Cost 30 cents or 50 cents. I am sitting in a very tiny chair, more like a stool or child’s chair. For that small transaction, we talk for an hour likely, because a friend is now joining us in this crammed room. I learned much about her on my many visits. She did not own the shop, which is common she worked for the husband or brother. They sold cigarettes too. Tobacco smoking is cheap and fashionable. Women do not smoke openly, but men do on every corner. This money gathering is the same with beauty shops too, a man will come by and take the money, sometimes twice a day.

My coffee exploits continued, the yarn shop, the cake shop, the bread shop. Socializing is part of your goals in Peace Corps, lucky me. I had standard answers by now, and a few silly Georgian canned joked. Like men or husbands are crazy, but I only have one! Church too, but that stone floor is tough on the knees, but after church when I found the Catholic church with pews, I was hauled into a 3 hour coffee at a home with no escape route, a cup of soup boiled for days and cookies. Half hour good, 3 hours with all the neighbors tricky when your stared at and spoken to in a second language.

Occasionally, then more routinely, I stopped at the one of two western style hotels in town. At first for the guaranteed western restrooms. Later would buy a real cappucino or Turkish coffee (traditional, small cup), best compared to espresso taken with nice cold glass of water. Often eat there, as the food was guaranteed safe. The business manager had schooled outside Georgia and was literate in English. We had met on my projects early in service. At first the discussions entailed much of the priorities to develop tourism, not the same as coffee with the ladies shops, he is not a lady. I learned a lot and felt this bond of friendship developing.

Fun to think back on, its felt as though you’re in school again but your not when your first meeting people. I found myself learning more Georgian and for me, it was important to discuss topics with emphasis even if my vocabulary was weak. My new friend was a second tutor, but, a crush or sorts. No, a crush it was.

In learning the word for important, I wanted all to know how it important is was for me to visit places and go all the places. And how I loved nature, we had these values in common as we sipped coffee, now a few times a week. In fact, twice I was offered a ride so I would not have to walk back to my host home. The crush is developing.

At coffee on a day no different day than another, he starts our talk that leads “I will take you and I will call you tonight!” Oh, “sure” and before you know it “here’s my number” One evening shortly after the call comes “the car is broke” we were to visit a start gazing spectacular above the castle” Me, “no problem”, but an hour later as the dusk moved to evening another call came “the car is fixed!” meet “us” at the bottom of the hill.

Days leading up to this, became a bit of a fantasy. He was clearly younger, best guess 42 at the most, but its enjoyable to listen to those younger, bright with dreams. I meet that night at the bottom of the hill by the gas station. Joined him in his 4x4 SUV in the front and saw a chaperone aka guy friend in the back. He never spoke the entire trip.

Later, other instances when I lived alone at my apartment, it was explained. Men were not allowed to come up the stairs alone and knock at your door.

We drive up the dirt road, listening to the story of how this will be the most wonderful tourist spot, but there is no running water, at the top. Well it most certainly would. And we discussed this water needed, me insisting on good restroom and how there is a natural brook not too far. At the top it you could see the immense Castle (thousands of year old border fortress), lit up with lights that shined gold in the distance. Above the starts shone well in the dark sky as the dust settles late at night. I did not want that minute to end.

My now very close friend was supportive when my mom fell ill with her first heart attack. We spoke about family and how that is all that really matters. Family is so important to culture in Georgia. About half way through my service he found a local girl and married and within that year had their first child. I slowed my coffee visits and arranged for others to take me all the places. When I stopped the last time in May 2019 and shared my trip to America would be for awhile, they seemed so sad. And I was too. Not even a hug as my good bye was in the open.

You’re not told or maybe you do not understand how much you will miss people after Peace Corps. I will make it back one day for coffee.

Thanks for listening! doe

#travel #peacecorps #peace corps

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tomhtrash-blog · 6 years

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Wrong Number(Tom Hiddleston): September Year One

Series Masterlist

2 September

Tom 6:43: Good morning, darling. Just woke up and I’m about to head out on my morning run, hope you slept well.

Sarah 9:17: You are very strange, Tom. Waking up early just to run, actually enjoying it, how do you do it?

Tom 9:24: I just do, if I go a day without a run that day is just no good. There is something so peaceful about running in the morning, the quiet sounds of the earth, the cool and crisp air, and just the calm view of the town.

Sarah 9:27: Wait, are you telling me you don’t even listen to music while you run?

Tom 9:29: I am definitely not saying that. Some days it’s just that I prefer to listen to the natural sounds of the world, but I usually do listen to something.

Sarah 9:30: What do you listen to?

Tom 9:34: It really depends on the day, what I listen to most days is a little embarrassing so I think I’ll keep that to myself until it’s of good use.

Sarah 9:35: There is nothing to be embarrassed about, a persons taste in music is a part of what makes that person who they are. So whatever it is, you can tell me, hell you can tell the whole world, because it is an important piece of you.

Tom 9:37: Alright, but swear you won’t judge me?

Sarah 9:39: I swear *raises right hand*

Tom 9:41: Starships, Nicki Minaj.

Sarah 9:42: That’s a really good song! I remember when that song came out a friend and I did an arrangement of it for a project, she did the backing tracks while I sang all vocals.

Tom 9:45: Every time you mention your singing my interest grows, I am just dying to hear your voice.

Sarah 9:46: I have a recording that I recently did for class, I could send it to you if you’d like.

Tom 9:47: I would love that, darling. Send away.

Sarah 9:51: Audio message:;My Bucket's Got A Hole In It -, 11.16 AM.mp3

Tom 9:58: Sarah, you have a marvelous singing voice! Are you playing guitar as well?

Sarah 10:01: It’s the ukulele, actually, but yes I am. I’m glad you like it.

Tom 10:02: Like it? I love it! What made you choose that song?

Sarah 10:05: It’s one of my favourites from the I Saw The Light soundtrack, and I love the original version as well. The chord progression is fairly simple so I was able to learn it quiet quickly.

Tom 10:07: Well, you sounded wonderful, darling. Do you listen to a lot of Hank Williams Sr.?

Sarah 10:08: Not really, when I listen to those songs they’re usually from the movie, I absolutely adore the way his voice sounds. I could listen to him sing for hours, and I have before. After first seeing the movie I spent the next few weeks only listening to him.

Tom 10:13: Wow, you’re a true fangirl, aren’t you?

Sarah 10:14: In a way, but I am not the obsessive, stalking, build a shrine, dedicate my life kind of fangirl. I appreciate him for all he has done and respect his privacy.

Tom 10:17: That’s good to hear. Some people just don’t understand that actors are people too.

Sarah 10:19: That’s what I always say! They are the same as everyone else, only that every decision or action of theirs is known by the world.

Tom 10:24: I know, even if they simply take a stroll through the park it will be on the cover of something within the next couple of days, and with the internet and social media the way it is almost everything is instant now.

Sarah 10:27: It must be hard to live life that way.

Tom 10:30: But there are good things and bad things in every situation, darling. In my opinion the feeling of having loving fans and enjoying your work could possibly make up for the media’s attention.

Sarah 10:33: That is a good point.

Tom 10:33: Could you ever see yourself living that sort of life?

Sarah 10:35: Not really, but if it were to happen to me I would embrace it and most likely love it.

Tom 10:38: Well, darling, with your voice I can see it happening to you any day now. :)

Sarah 10:53: You’re too sweet.

Tom 10:56: I’m honest, Sarah.

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15 September

Tom 4:38: Happy Friday, love. Hope your day is going well.

Sarah 5:12: Happy Friday to you as well, Tom. I’m sorry I’m sorry it took me so long to reply, but I just got off of work.

Tom 5:15: No worries. Do you have any interesting plans for the weekend?

Sarah 5:16: I do, actually. A few friends are taking me out drinking tomorrow night to celebrate my birthday.

Tom 5:18: Is it your birthday tomorrow?

Sarah 5:19: It’s Sunday, but they have work and I have classes Monday morning so we decided Saturday would be best.

Tom 5:23: Well, happy early birthday. Should I get you a gift? I’m not really sure what is proper edicate when your ‘texting only, don’t know very much information about, never met in person, no idea what they look like, twelve years younger than you’ friend has a birthday.

Sarah 5:26: I don’t think there is proper edicate for that, you old dork.

Tom 5:33: Old? Darling, I am many things, but I am not old.

Sarah 5:38: Whatever you say, old man.

***************

16 September

Sarah 7:42: Heading out for the night, just wanted to let you know in case I don’t reply for a while.

Tom 7:45: Have fun, darling.

Tom 8:36: How are things going, Sarah? Having fun, I hope.

Sarah 9:27: A blast! Karaoke, dancing, flirting with random strangers, random strangers flirting with me, guys asking me how it’s possible that I’m single, and most importantly, the alcohol. It’s a pretty great night so far!

Tom 9:32: Glad to hear that. Just be careful, alright?

Sarah 9:56: I always am, Tom.

Tom 11:55: SARAH I HAVE AMAZING NEWS

Sarah 11:56: What is it?

Tom 11:56: It’s your birthday in four minutes :)

Sarah 11:58: You’re a dork. How has your night been?

Tom 11:59: We can talk about that later, because your birthday is just moments away!

Tom 11:59: Any second now

Tom 11:59: Any

Tom 11:59: Second

*****

17 September

Tom 12:00: HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING!

Sarah 12:07: You’re a dork, Tom. Makes me smile.

Tom 12:09: That’s my job now, darling. :)

Sarah 12:13: You are honestly my favourite person, despite the sad fact that I’ve never seen you before.

Tom 12:14: Well, maybe that could be my birthday present for you.

Sarah 12:17: But I thought we were going to keep this as anonymous as possible?

Tom 12:18: We did, and so we shall. What I am proposing is that I will send you a photo of me without showing my face

Sarah 12:20: That’s a really good idea, and it would prove to my friends that you are a real person.

Tom 12:21: I assure you, darling, I am very real. So what do you say, a photo for the birthday girl?

Sarah 12:28: It sounds lovely. Would you like me to return the favor?

Tom 12:29: Only if you truly want to. Image file

The picture shows a rather tall man standing in front of a full length mirror, the book Any Human Heart covering his face. He is wearing a yellow tee shirt and flannel pajama bottoms. He is quite fit, arms toned as one holds his cell phone up to take the picture while the other keeps the book in place, defined muscles showing despite the shirt covering them. His hair is messy, the colour a mix between blonde and brown.

Sarah 12:35: O_O

Sarah 12:35: You look different than I imagined, you look really good. Not that I was imagining you not looking good, it’s just I wasn’t expecting you to be in such great shape.

Tom 12:37: Thank you, darling. Happy birthday.

Sarah 12:45: Thank you for being so wonderful. Image file

The picture shows a woman in a figure hugging green dress that stops a little below her knees, the fit of the dress showing off her curves. The picture was clearly taken by someone else, as it shows her entire body. She is holding what appears to be a menu of some sort in front of her face, while her other hand rests on her hip. Her legs go on for miles, ending with a pair of golden high heeled shoes. Her hair hangs down below her shoulders in waves of blonde.

Tom 12:48: You look positively stunning, Sarah. Absolutely gorgeous.

Sarah 12:50: I thought you said your job was to make me smile? Because right now all you’re doing is making me blush.

Tom 12:52: Blushing is merely a perk of the job, darling. I must say, I am bewildered by the fact that you are single.

Sarah 1:02: Trust me, if you met me in person you would understand. The way you look there is now way that you are single, is there?

Tom 1:04: There is because I am.

Sarah 1:05: How in hell is that possible? Have you seen you?

Tom 1:07: I’ve dated here and there, but nothing ever seems to last for long. I travel a lot for work and that makes it hard, it seems that most women find the long distance thing a deal breaker.

Sarah 1:28: Sorry my reply took so long. What line of work are you in?

Tom 1:30: Now, now, darling. What happened to keeping this an anonymous thing?

Sarah 1:32: Oh, right. Sorry, I tend to forget things when I drink.

Tom 1:35: How much have you had to drink?

Sarah 1:37: Enough that I don’t give a fuck what I say but not enough to not remember this in the morning

Tom 1:39: Promise me you won’t be driving?

Sarah 1:42: I promise. I didn’t drive here anyway

Tom 1:43: Good. I’m afraid that I am in desperate need of sleep, so this is goodnight. Be safe, Sarah. Happy birthday.

#tom hiddleston #tom hiddleston x ofc #tom hiddleston x reader #tom hiddleston imagine

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i-amusemyself · 6 years

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Thanks anon!! Thats my boredom cured for the evening

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?

I’m actually not confused right now, which is a bloody rarity. I suppose I could say I’m slightly confused about my gender, but I try not to think about that tbh

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

Occasionally, though to be fair I’m never awake in the mornings atm lmao

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?

On a rare occasion? No. All the time? Probably.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others?

Fuck no lmao have you met people?

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?

Umm...I was with my bf..

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?

Probably my mate from uni @bookdragonphoenix

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?

Instant break up. No excuses for that.

8: Are you close with your dad?

Hoo boi that’s complicated! It varies honestly, but more so than some people I guess

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?

Yeah

10: What are you listening to?

I’m listening to Ke$ha’s Die Young. It’s a tune okay?

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?

Coke Cola (that is how you spell it right? Fuck im dumb). I live off it anyway tbh

12: Do you like hickeys?

Um, I like getting them but I get embarrased if some people see them lmfao

13: What time do you go to bed?

Like 12am? Usually about 2 hours after I’m tired enough to sleep smh

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?

Besides me? I guess a couple of people that are...distant friends and possibly a few family members, not to call anyone out

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?

Well no lmao

16: Do you always answer your texts?

90% of them

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?

I don’t know who I fell the hardest for. I don’t really recall past emotions that well.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

Todayy

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?

3 or 4 people yeah!

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?

Fuck me I don’t know. Probably ughhh can I fall asleep pls

21: Is anyone else in the room with you?

Nope. I havent even seen another human today lmao

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?

To an extent, but it’s not always guaranteed unfortunately

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?

Fuck no lmao

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?

That depends on the definition of fix. If it solely relies on me doing things different, then no. But if it means someone else can themselves be fixed, sure.

25: In the past week, have you cried?

Nah, wish I could though I feel like I need to

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?

Grey

27: Do people ever call you by your last name?

Not people I see anymore

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?

Don’t think so. I think people are just busy.

29: Do you have a best friend?

I have multiple

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?

Very :/

31: Who was your last call/text message from?

@oneshappyplace bc she loves it when i throw random shit her way and vice versa

32: Are you mad at anyone?

I mean besides the people I have long term issues with? Nah

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

Haha yeah

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?

20. Oh jeeeeesus christ that’s a scary fucking thought. Nope-ing away from that.

35: How many more days until your birthday?

8 months ish?

36: Do you have any summer plans yet?

I’m going away to quite a few places. There’s more I want to do but I don’t know if it will ever get organised.

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?

Besides my bf, not good ones.

Edit: I completely forgot about one of my friends, yes I do

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?

Not intentionally. Idk. Don’t ask don’t tell I guess.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?

Yeah bc it aint anyones business

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

I don’t think so.

41: Do you think age matters in relationships?

To an extent. Massive age gaps are weird, especially if one of them is hella young

42: Are you available?

Nein

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?

Eyebrow piercing

45: Do you believe exes can be friends?

I guess? I mean I probs couldn’t do that but I guess for others

46: Do you regret anything?

So fucking much omfg

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?

How shit I am at communication. I’m really starting to get mad at myself and wonder what the fuck is wrong with me.

48: Did you ever lose a best friend?

In a way, yeah

49: Was your last kiss a mistake?

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?

I...am ig

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?

Yup

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?

Wow this is relentless with the kissing. Yah

53: What was the last thing you ate?

An orange

54: Did you get any compliments today?

Nope

55: Where are you going on your next vacation?

Suffolk for latitude festival. How I ended up going there is a long story lmao

56: Do you own anything from other countries?

Tons of stuff I guess. I mean I’m wearing my ohio state tshirt haha

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?

Girls

58: Where have you lived most of your life?

In the middle of england

59: When was the last time you took a long drive?

Fucking hell, like 7 or 8 weeks ago when I came back to uni

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?

Who hasn’t?

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?

Nah

62: Who do you text the most?

Probably @oneshappyplace or @apricot-el they get all my bs

63: What was the last movie you saw?

It’s called Chronicle, it was p good

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?

Don’t fekkin ask that lmao! Hopefully the fact they’re happy and their ex is now miles away

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?

Zero

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?

Nein

67: Do you curse around your parents?

Yeah, much to their dislike

68: Are you happy with where you live?

Yeah, but I’m only here for 3 more weeks

69: Picture of yourself?

No chance. Just imagine stereotypical androgenous kid, but lanky af

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?

Personally I prefer monogamy

71: Have you ever been dumped?

Um...I actually can’t remember

72: What do you most like about making out?

Feeling wanted ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ (sweet sweet depression and anxiety)

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with?

Nah

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?

Strangely enough, me

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive?

I cannot seriously pick one part

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?

You guessed it it’s @oneshappyplace

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?

I mean I’m alone

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name?

Nope

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?

Just cute unexpected gestures I suppose

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?

I mean, maybe not currently but who knows if I was older

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?

Yeah

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?

Just my closest friends and the person I have a crush on *eye roll*

83: Do you miss your last sweetie?

84: Last time you slow danced with someone?

Years ago

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met?

I mean I’ve met them now but yes

86: How can I win your heart?

Be a kind, understanding human being with a damn good sense of humor

87: What is your astrological sign?

Libra

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?

Bothering friends lmao

89: Do you cook?

Occasionally. I used to a lot more but depression

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?

Yeah, but it only ever seems to be me making the effort, so every time I’ve let them go again

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?

see like all previous answers lol

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?

Monogamous stuff

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?

I honestly don’t know. I can never figure out my type, just, hotness lmao

94: Name four things that you wish you had!

Dopamine, money, the power to help others more...thats it thats all I want

95: Are you a player?

Nein

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?

Nope

97: Are you a tease?

I can be but not in a cruel way

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?

Two people and we’re still close

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?

That’s a loaded question yikes. I dont know.

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with?

I mean I don’t know their tumblr but yh

101: Hugs or Kisses?

Both. I can’t choose. I’m bi.

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?

Probs idk

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

....their face?

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?

Sure

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?

Not until I knew wtf they were playing at

106: Do you flirt a lot?

I’m hopeless at it

107: Your last kiss?

Yesterday

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?

I haven’t kissed that many people, full stop.

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?

Yikes see 107

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?

The bae tbh

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next?

I have a p good idea

112: Does someone like you currently?

I fekkin hope so

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?

Yeah lmao

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?

Serious shit

115: Ever made out with just a friend?

Once when drunk

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?

In a relationship, for sure

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