#i need to look onwards to tmrrw n see what more i can do

[noxtivagus]

hell yeah im done w school for the week <3

#🌙.rambles #i love getting lost n just focusing on some assignment like that #aaaa now my thoughts r wandering again now that i'm done tho ;; #the past few weeks have been kinda shitty but i'm gna do better now #yh i started this school year feeling tired so that didn't really go well #i'll rest well this weekend n do better from now on #i can always choose to do better. #little steps! i'll just do what i can in a given moment #i'm just try n communicate more tho bcs that's where most distance comes from #i still have this urge to hide tho hhhh n i have regrets but #i need to look onwards to tmrrw n see what more i can do #if i'm happier than i was before then that's enough. that's enough for me #yes even if it hurts n aches i'll just accept what i can do at a certain time! #if i'm not kind n patient w myself then where else cld i find that? #i'm gna build that strength from the inside again #honestly haven't been feeling like myself lately #slowly. once more. i'll find myself again #i just need to be patient and kind to myself! #i need to stop isolating n distancing myself from others tho whenever i feel sad n tired ;; #im sorry i still care for you all but >< i dont want to force myself to be better if im not #so i try to feel the pain i guess? ive had ppl invalidate my emotions before so one thing im trying to actively do is #not deny my emotions. im not gna invalidate myself. its hard for me honestly but im trying #n it gets too tiring some days to get the energy to reach out #im trying tho! i want to be better everyday n i think that's enough #i'm only human; it's alright for be to be in pain right? i'm not perfect. #i'm just as imperfect as everyone else but i'm proud of my mindset of wanting to be self-aware of the good and bad and improve. #n still thinking of others! i do need to accept that its hard to manage all the love n care n depth of emotions n thoughts i have at times #n. i make mistakes but i'm still a kind person at heart #i say that but i can't exactly believe it completely just yet;; #i'll remind myself that the pain is valid. we all deserve better. it's alright for me to not be perfect.